Race pics and updates...

OK so a trained geek like myself has been having some technical difficulties with trying to get this blog post written. I have written it a few times but when I go to save it... Well it doesn't save. I know first world problems but for a geek like myself it kinda drives me batty. It especially drives me crazy after I have written a good one complete with tears thrown in while writing it. Yes sometimes I pull some of the deep inner gooey stuff out and it brings a little water to fall from my eyes.

 I know I have probably bored you already and lost any hopes of keeping you here to even remotely read this thing. Lol Where was I going with this? Oh right updates on my knee. Yeah the thing is pissing me off and this "not trying to be a hero thing" is putting a damper on this thing that I love. Yes working out and racing... OK racing goes first then working out. If you play your cards right if your a single male you too could be the fourth thing. Lol I am joking you would be up in there too in the big list of important people and things in my life.

I am still working out but we are modifying the knee stuff as we go so we don't wreck it more but can get some rehab work going on it. The new workout program I am loving (as usual) all because it's about upper body and core, leg stuff to but modified for the painful knee! Yeah baby it's time I pull my mental head block out of my ass and get past it so I can accomplish more at my Spartans. My goal is to complete every obstacle without assistance and no more burpees one day. OK I am one of the few sadistic people that like them especially when I can do burpee pull ups. I need to find that trigger that I find when I race and just do it and bring the trigger to my workouts and well like the Nike commercials say "just do it". As for my asthma and the rest of my body we are so ready to get going and do this. I am sensing a theme for this month, maybe two themes "don't be a hero" and "just fricken do it". They really contradict themselves but I do stop when the pain in my knee reaches 5 and up. Before that I just lighten weight and take it easy monitoring it. It's always best to play on the caution side and never push past a bad pain. You could do serious long term damage. As stubborn as I am I even follow that rule. I have learned that lesson the hard way.

So this is a little bit cool... OK it's really cool. While I was racing the Beast in Montana last month my parents and son had a lot of time to kill while they waited for me. They ended up talking to this guy who like me is addicted to Spartan racing and is a Spartan SGX trainer. Anyways long story short they were telling him about my journey into these races with my asthma. He connected with me thru Instagram and Friday contacted me and asked if it was OK he do a little write up of me about my journey. I was blown away and honored. I hope at one point we can meet up face to face. Here is the link to his write up and blog (click here) . Give it a read and hear some amazing stories as well as a funny one that most racers can relate to. I don't think of myself as anything so it is weird to say that I inspire them. Don't get me wrong I am grateful that I can and I do. It's just that I am just living my new lease on life on my terms and my way. I never at one point think "if I do this then others will make those comments or whatever". I am not doing it for a popularity contest, looking for validation or as a look at me kind of thing. I am far from that. I am just being me, 100% honest awkwardly dorky me. I love myself, all of my body and my own company now. I never thought this day would come. Huh guess I have grown up finally. Lol

I have had a few appointments and tests done on my knee and yes I am still waiting to hear the results of them. Waiting is the hardest part I think. I just want answers so we can just deal with it and move on making it better. I have done four laser treatments and I don't think it's getting better but it's also not getting worse. So still unknown about it. The good thing is after my new workouts I can still go up stairs now, whereas before I couldn't walk up them. So maybe the laser is helping but also my new workouts this month are awesome.

Personal life well let's just say lack of sleep and constant pain hasn't been helping. Can't sleep thru the night and running around with soccer stuff so my son can be happy has been draining. I am so glad he is loving outdoor this year. He has an amazing coach that believes in him and always see's what Ty is capable of. So far this season they are second in their division. I am feeling a little burnt out. I don't remember a night of fun, no worries or a full sleep. Lol Being a full time single working mom has its challenges. My son says I am a kick-ass mother and father and that he should celebrate fathers day for me too. Pretty sweet and caring kid I have. I am so blessed!! I am grateful for our closeness and the times that I do get a night alone I truly appreciate. Amazing how you tend to appreciate the little things and moments. I have been getting out and dating here and there... It is an interesting thing to go thru but least I am getting out there. Lol 

On that note I leave you with a few Montana Spartan race pics.

Until next time..

** UPDATE** So I have found out that my knee isn't torn and it is just slightly stretched and some fluid in it. I am going to continue with laser and see how that goes. I can start to jog and use it more again. Feeling pretty happy and VERY relieved!