So I did it... I actually did it. I'm not surprised I went I always knew I would go no matter what. I had the BEST solo adventure in a very long time. I was feeling the need to break out and do something crazy. Well I did it and man did I have my challenges along the way. I LOVED every minute of it even with stumbling blocks along the way. I kept my cool and knew things would work out one way or the other. The old me would panic and freak out... now I just roll with it and kept calm. I mean what else could I do... it was out of my control. lol I am so proud of myself and doing this adventure plus getting some faster race times too.
I took off from Calgary Friday night to fly into Winnipeg Manitoba. First off getting to the airport was a challenge with the downpour mother nature decided to dump on me making driving an adventure. But I get checked in and to my gate to only find out my plane is delayed. Ended up getting out of Calgary at 10pm when I was supposed to leave at 7:30. I had fun people watching and what else was I going to do. Realized before I left that the car rental place closes at midnight and I wasn't sure if I was going to have a car when I arrived in Winnipeg. Well we landed and waiting 3o min to get my bag... I walked really fast (some of you know how fast I can walk lol) and was happy to see the guy waiting for me. YAY!! I ended up getting a sweet ride... a Chrysler 300S... oh yeah I was a hot momma driving around at 1am lol. Had a good adventure getting out of Winnipeg to Steinbach... lots of interesting things happened at 1am and you would be surprised at all the animals I saw. lol FINALLY arrived at the hotel at 2am. Crashed and got three hours of sleep. Phew... I made... holly crap!
Was up and ready to race for 8:30 and had an awesome time with my friends, had my fastest Spartan Super time too and even nailed my spear throw! Was an awesome race getting some things done that I was struggling with this race season. Had a great time the rest of the day and met a lot more people too which is always awesome. I love how the Spartans are like one big family! Enjoyed hanging out with my girls too and was nice having them drop me off at the airport and hanging out with me. My plane was delayed... I know right your like really again... I know. This time I got home at 12:30am. lol little earlier then the day before. Sunday I slept a ton.... most of the day to be exact lol. I accomplished laundry and unpacking. So my last post said my son was going to head south before me.... well my little buddy wanted to stay and have one of our epic road trips together. I didn't mind and cherish these moments.. he is going to be a teen soon and that might go away. Might not be cool to hang with his Mom as much lol.
We had such a fun drive down to Columbia Falls MT and have been enjoying the rest and relaxation. Needed to recharge again. Have a busy race season when we get back and very few weekends that are free. Excited for my fun races with friends and being able to goof off and have some fun plus excited to go harder at some others. I love Montana and being down here. It's my second home and always feel content no matter what is going on in my life back home. It helps me see things more clear and feel more grounded. Time in the mountains always do that too.
Had a great time in Montana and needed to recharge. Was a nice break in the middle of my race schedule and the next two months are going to be busy but amazing ones!! Forever Grateful and Blessed!
Until next time...
OK more nervous.... yeah way more nervous. lol Friday night I fly out after work on a whirlwind travel mania... haha OK I don't know what to call it and its been a very busy stressful week. I fly out Friday night to Winnipeg MB (never been to Manitoba) get a car rental and drive an hour away to crash on a hotel floor with friends that were awesome to offer me a spot to crash... better then sleeping in my car rental. I then race the Spartan Super Saturday morning, shower somewhere, catch dinner with friends and fly out that night back home. My son heads to the States early with my parents for vacation and then 3 days later I show up and get a few days of rest.... I can't wait!!!!!!
After that it's mostly race everywhere kinda of weekends until October. October is going to be amazing... I am heading back to Seattle to complete the first ever Spartan Beast there. (yes I seem to do that lots with Spartans lol) But not only will I get to see what it will be like but I will also be bringing home my 3X Spartan Trifecta Medal! Last year I brought home the 2X Trifecta one and I can't wait. You see, with the amount of Western Canadian Races I am doing this summer thanks to my seasons pass I only needed a Beast and Super... had to as I wasn't going to get this close again. You see when I was going thru my separation I decided back then and even maybe 6 months before that I would live without regrets. I started living my life, started taking back my life, living it and enjoying it, taking chances and winging it. I had failures but also had so much more success. I have so many awesome positive people in my life now. I absolutely LOVE THIS!! I love you all!! Growing up I was scared and shy.... my personality tests all said I was a major introvert... my latest one that I took the 4th day at my new job three months ago told me otherwise. I was shocked at first but in looking back I can see how much I changed. I mean I changed a lot and for the best I think. Least that's all that matters doesn't it? The ones closest to me are cared for a loved. I don't care what you think about me, I am living my life on my terms now. I am happy and that's all that matters. I am strong and determined, speak my mind and no holding back. Almost dying in March made me realize even more so that time is precious... I thought that before but I needed a wakeup call about my job at the time.... I took chances and I landed on my feet... luckily but regardless I would have figured out another way... there is always another way... your never stuck... your not a tree... you can get up and try something else. People come into your life for one reason or another... I truly believe that. They either help teach you a lesson or add more to it. If it's meant to be it will be... I know another corny line but it's so true.
Here is a video a friend sent to me.... speaks volumes to me. If anything I hope you get it and like the message as much as I do. This guy is amazing and always speaks the words I feel inside but can't get out as well as he can. I always cry when I watch these.
Wow almost forgot.... my son and I ran a race on Canada Day at Spruce Meadows. We ran the Heros Behind the Heros 5k OCR race in support of our military. It was so much fun with friends and the obstacles were military style too. You know what was even better was my body felt pretty great and my lungs did too!! I almost had everything match up this time. Was a blast and had a awesome time even with completing the obstacles. Have a couple pics to post. Also have my pictures from Rundle's Revenge and have a favorite one. Amazing times, so many awesome memories and so much fun.
So not sure when I will update again but will try to in between the busy summer of racing and living life!! I hope you are doing that too... enjoying life!
Until next time...
I keep travelling all over completing a bunch more races. In fact this past weekend I covered 746.9km in two days doing just that. This past weekend I raced at the 5k Foam Fest with my son Ty and as always we had a great time despite the rainy weather. Did good after having my physiotherapist appointment a few days before. We then drove the 2hrs back home from Red Deer so I could head to a friends place in Cochrane that night to save some driving time Sunday morning. Sunday morning we went to Canmore and ran the Rundle's Revenge 12.5km trail race at the Canmore Nordic Center. Amazing time and we did awesome despite starting out with calf cramps in my right leg right after we started. I pushed thru and realized I LOVE LOVE running the trails thru the trees. Trail running made me fall in love with running again. After doing the half marathon I realized I hate pavement running. It's hard and it sucks. Lol Running thru the trees and flying over stumps and rocks is such a blast. Going up sucks but the coming down I was getting faster and faster. I can't wait to run that race again next year. My asthma this past weekend was amazing and I can feel my lungs getting stronger. It was awesome but we also had a bit cooler weather and that usually helps me.
Next year I am slowing down and doing only a few races. Want to do more trail races and might not even do a spartan race..... I know your like...WHAT!?!? Yes I AM feeling ok. I was supposed to take this year to rest and I haven't and in fact I keep adding to my already long list. I want to volunteer at Spartans in the US so I can still be apart of it but also help give back at my favourite places to race that brought so much to my life.
Racing and getting into this healthy lifestyle has helped me so much thru my divorce and helping me find myself. Brought so many new and amazing people into my life. Got to take me places I haven't been and shown me I have what it takes to accomplish my goals. Made me mentally, physically strong and learning more about my body and what makes it work more efficient. I don't know where I would be in life if I didn't find it. I went into my separation a mess, lost, scared and angry. I had to find myself again and learn that just because I probably won't know the "whys" that I learnt to let it go and forgive. I don't like what happened during the time being married but forgiving him gave me my power back and once I did that I made massive and faster changes.
Even shitty marriages you need to grieve the loss and go thru all the emotions. It was a huge part of your past, things were done and said and you need to deal with it, learn from it so you don't bring that into new relationships and move on. You can't change the past you can only learn from it. If you were hurt and lied too you can't think everyone is that way and as hard as it is you have to learn to trust again. Sure your going to get hurt but you could also miss an awesome opportunity/person if you don't. Life isn't perfect and timing isn't either. Being scared is normal but sometimes you just have to do it and hope that things work out. It takes two compete people to make a relationship work. No lies and no trying to change them, just help them see their true potential and help them grow as a person. Working together as a team will only make your relationship stronger.
As as you can see I have gone thru a ton of changes. But I am me... I'm not trying to be something I'm not. Just me being 100% real, open and honest.
I leave you with a few of my fav pics from the races competed. They were a lot of fun!
Until next time..
As time goes by I am always looking back to see how far I have come and how my life keeps changing. I am always grateful for the experiences that happen to me whether they are good or bad. I also know the bad never lasts and the good eventually comes back. Since March my life keeps getting better and better. New people and my past finally closed. New goals accomplished and more things learnt about myself and how I do/handle things. In a recent conversation with a new person in my life I am reminded that timing is never perfect like life. Some things take time and I am learning to become more patient to those that deserve it and in my everyday life as well. I find I handle things more calmly, identify certain things better and working on re-training my brain to stop looking for issues or thinking everyone is going to hurt me. I am doing much better at the self sabotage and letting things happen naturally in life. Like everything nothing happens fast and sure things are going to happen that are out of my control. I can just control how I handle them.
I have completed 5 races in just over a month. I have some crazy stats posted below about the distance I have covered during that time not including the training distances.
May 29th I ran my 4th Half Marathon... the first in over a year. My previous three half marathons were done a lot faster. My personal best was 2:24:56. I was feeling a little sorry for myself with my time this year of 3:02:20. A friend that has known me so long... before I was married and knew the old me told me that those previous times were done on lungs that were stronger. My asthma setback in March made them weak again and I did great for having weak lungs. He said I was doing amazing for doing the last four races that weren't easy ones either. I stopped feeling sorry for myself and realized he was right. I was being pathetic and that I should have been proud to finish as fast as I did with the weaker lungs I have now. During the race I felt not bad the first half and had my best start to it. Had issues the second half with lungs and my body. Hip started acting out and my lungs had their moments too and didn't want me to forget about them. It was getting hotter the second half and I do crappy when I start over heat.
I am extremely proud of my Son Ty and his friend Braiden for running their first Half Marathon and doing it in a time of 2:41:20. The only 12yr olds there running it. Super proud Mom moment that I wished I could have been there to see him finish. Was shocked to see him waiting for me just passed the medals. Made me break down and cry. OK truth is I cried a lot Sunday.... during the race and after.
I am seeing my lung specialist that was given to me after my severe asthma attack back in March. I forgot how hard the breathing tests were to do but am happy they didn't spark any asthma attacks. I don't like four shots of ventoline as it makes my heart race and gives me the jitters. I get to try new drugs since the ones I have been on for soooo many years. Nervous to try them but it might be what I need to breathe better.
I am getting back on track with training now that I have had a week off and saw my physiotherapist. Typical leg tightness causing some issues but I wasn't as bad as she thought I might be. Hopefully soon things settle down. Going to run more at lunches and head to the stairs and run those. Also working in my workouts too at home around my work and soccer schedule. Slowly getting there. Need to gear up for my big race at the end of the month.
Until next time...
Your probably thinking "WOW she just realized that now"?? haha I always knew I was but it's becoming more apparent and I can't seem to stop it. I find its better to just hang on for the ride. lol Why fight it. So some of this wasn't totally planned and races decided to change dates on me so in order to do the races I needed and wanted I kinda had to do it. Ya I know I am at the making excuses part. haha
I have since done Seattle and then last weekend did a 15 km one... this coming weekend is well the Montana Spartan Beast and Sprint weekend and yes I am doing both.... AGAIN. Now I know your thinking "hey wait isn't that 4 races in three weeks"? "Is she nuts"? Answer is YES!!! Hence the awesome title for my blog this time! haha So not sure what the total distance will be, but once I am done both this weekend I will add up my four races distances and let you know. I already know it is going to be a lot.
Our weekend in Seattle was totally epic!! The dream team survived and had a great time. My son LOVED the Spartan Race..... he loved it so much he is doing the Montana Sprint with me. He might as well know what Montana Spartans are all about and why not do it with his amazing mom on Mothers Day!! haha OK he didn't say amazing BUT he did say "awesome mom". We made our rounds all over the Seattle area and not once got lost. My son even found this amazing soccer store and got us there with no issues. He found all the soccer stuff he has been wanting and as usual way more. I was just happy to head to the Lululemon Outlet and get some cool things. We didn't sight-see since it was such a quick trip and we both were tired. We want to head back without doing a race and to check things out and have way more time down there.
The Spartan Super was a modified course... longer and harder. Was great. My hip held on well thru it all and did better then I thought it would. Huge relief!! Only thing I didn't like was the thorn bushes on the edge of the hill trails and the atlas ball carry at the end after being all wet and muddy. OK that one was a love/hate thing. My time would have been faster if I could have gotten the ball back but it was so slick I had issues getting it picked up. My song came on and that helped me big time!
I am posting a few pics. I loved the race ones of my son closing his eyes over the fire and the dunk wall ones. We both had some pretty funny faces.
Montana Spartan Beast and Sprint ended up being epic, hard and awesome. The Beast I finished over 2hrs faster then the year before and the Sprint with my son Ty the next day we finished over an hour faster then the year before. Ty could have done it a lot faster but decided to stick it out with his Mom. Can't complain and super happy with my times. Met more amazing people before (Mandie and Danielle), during the Beast race and ended up finishing with an amazing lady from Great Falls Mt. I always learn new things and love meeting the new people that I meet along the way. Was great to start with my friend Laura whom I have missed, then raced part of the way with Cheryl and Olivia then finished with Barb a.k.a Betty! lol We had some fun times that kept us going. It was a super hot and dusty weekend of racing and Montana was awesome. My hip did amazing, asthma had its ups and downs but was able to control it but had to move slightly slower then I wanted and if it was cooler I know I would have been able to move a little faster. Regardless super happy with times and how my body did. I totally listened to it along the way and didn't do things that could possible make things worse. Amazing hey... who knew... hahaha I am finally getting this listening to the body thing and its showing amazing results. Now to rest and slowly get back into training again. My next race is May 29th when I will complete my Half Marathon with my son Ty, his friend Braiden and more of my awesome friends. The months of June and July will be fun ones except the end of June where I will do a 25km trail race in Canmore Alberta.
Some stats from the weekend are posted below.
oh and I got my first Trifecta in 2 weeks... not bad hey!)
As usual some pics of the races this weekend.
Until next time...
" In the end we only regret the chances we didn't take"
I know it's been a month since my last post... as you can tell by the title I had to take a chance and throw caution out the door. My asthma made me wake up and realize I needed to make a massive change. So I did!! I quit my job before I had another one lined up. I had to leave that last one as it was a really unhealthy, negative, threatening environment. I know lies were said about me and things were said that I supposedly said about others were so not true, all lies. I didn't quit because I was sick, I quit because I wasn't thriving in that environment. I missed being in a TRUE IT world with other like minded geeks like myself. Working with a team and striving to do things better, more efficient and helping others. I really LOVE my new job so far. In my first week I have contributed a bunch to my team and feel like I can help bring some of my knowledge to help them and vise versa. The company cares about their employees as well and it shows how happy everyone is here and how long some have been here. Truly amazing!
I only had two weeks off from when I quit to when I started the new one. I was able to rest during that time and get my lungs better. I got together with friends that I haven't seen in ages, had a girls wine night that was successful and soooo much fun, went hiking a bunch and made new friends along the way. I am only dealing with one issue and that is my hip. It's tight and I can't fully release it. I am seeing a physiotherapist and hope to get that cleared up before my Spartan Super in Seattle this weekend! Eeekkk Excited and scared! lol My Spartan in training is racing along my side this time to make sure I make it out OK! lol He was nervous with just the two of us going and so I decided I would pay for him to race too. We will make it a fun time and make some cool new memories. So if you see us we are starting at 8:45am with the Spartan 4-0 team but wearing our "Eh Team shirts".... say HI and by all means help a girl out!! lol I will need some help along the way I am sure.
So as you know it usually takes me a few days or weeks to get a post out and my crazy busy life I hadn't had time. Anyways I saw the physiotherapist and she worked on me. Got things to loosen up more but I need to stretch lots before fully moving. It still gets tired and such from being worked on but I am hopeful it goes back to normal soon. I got IMS done for the first time and wow is it awesome. I apparently have a high pain tolerance. lol
Will write more when I get back from Seattle and give you a race re-cap and let you know how things went!
Wish us luck!! Until next time...
Pardon for the pun but it truly does. If you have been following along you know my training hasn't been going so well due to my asthma. Well it has finally reared its ugly head and put a stop to me completely this week. My asthma has been well controlled for sometime and my training was coming along really well. But I thought I got a cold and well it was just my asthma bothering me in a new way that I haven't experienced before. I was sick or so I thought in Edmonton at soccer provincials but I was just having issues breathing. It got so bad that on Tuesday this week I got my Dad to drive me into the hospital in Calgary and well they never let me go home until Wednesday.
I was thankful that I decided to stay and let them admit me to the hospital as it turned out I had several asthma attacks all night every couple hours apart. My asthma is extremely worse at night. They put me on prednisone to work with my lungs and while being there they also gave me a new lung specialist. She is going to work with me and see what my triggers were for this to happen. Personally I think it was a few things that built up. I have been very stressed lately and I know when I get even the slightest stressed right now I can bring on an asthma attack pretty quick. I have to keep my lungs calm, life calm and rest a ton. I know that word is so foreign to me. I am not doing so well at it but I am listening to my body. I am trying to anyways. It's a great thing I started working on that aspect of things a while ago. Lol head start now!! Haha
All those drugs they pumped into me and I keep taking give me the shakes. When you can't breathe it takes everything your body has to try and keep those lungs going. Takes SO much energy out of you. You feel like you've aged a hundred years. Plus you don't feel like eating much either which again doesn't help the situation. If you talk lots you start coughing and when you cough lots you can bring on an asthma attack. It's a vicious circle.
While I was alone in the isolated makeshift hospital room I was left in (which later grateful I was) I felt scared. Not just a little scared I was really scared. I thought that after all this hard work of increasing my lung capacity and exercising again my lungs really won. This was how I was going to die. I got thru it twice before when I almost died when I was younger but thought nope it's caught back up to me and this could be it. What did I do to piss them off this much. But now I know that it was just a combination of things in my life that set them off. Not one thing triggered them but they got to the point that they just basically said "F@ck You we are done"!
You see my life has gone thru some major changes in the new year. All good things and I knew it was coming but my introverted extrovert personality wasn't no matter how hard I tried to help it. I don't like changes in my life. I have been learning to adapt to them and I know change happens. But this has been a lot of change and with change it brought new issues to deal with up. Even though I am now coping better when dealing with change it still doesn't make things any easier. Wow I basically just talked that one into a massive circle. lol I was making it thru it and thought I was on the out again and things were coming into plan. Least so I thought and like the normal pattern of my new life something always pops in and throws me for a loop. We'll this time it thru my health into it and this time something major about my health.
I won't be taking this very lightly as I know I need to listen to the professionals in my life. I know I said I was going to start taking yoga up well it's a done deal now and I will be going to a class on a regular basis now (once my strength is back 100%) I also want to take some other classes or do more reasearch on chest opening and getting proper posture. I want to learn more breathing type ways to help my asthma and keep things more open. Sure the drugs are helping now but I don't want to rely on them to help me. If I can do more on my own so the drugs I do need to take will work better. The more I can do to help myself the more I will feel in control of my life again. I don't like loosing control like that and being confined to a hospital room.
I was starting to feel sorry for myself and getting all pouty about how poor me and my crappy life and my crappy lungs. But I am not that and I don't need to react that way. I needed to change my thinking about it. I am not the old me who would do that. Not anymore and I needed to pick myself up with whatever little strength I could muster up and start looking at this differently. My last blog post was proof I was already starting to come to this thinking but I needed a major wake up call. Well I get it loud and clear OK!! I finally get it! I need to make changes and I need to figure out how to make those changes. Changes are scary and your worried if your going to sink or swim. But sometimes you just gotta grab life by the horns and go for it. Sure you might fail but you also just might also succeed and it might turn out better then you ever imagined. Your life is what you make it!!
I need to have this thinking when dating... How will I have a chance to meet someone new If I don't get out there and keep putting myself out there. One day it will click and it will show my why all the others didn't work for me. But I can't be worried about others hidden agenda and can't put people in the same category when I haven't gotten to know them well enough. You need to start out as friends and let things happen. If it does great and of not maybe you get a new friend out of it. I have a ton of respect to those guys that chose other ways but that felt they could be honest with me and let me know why. I hope they see a friend in me cause they are cool guys. I wish them well in their life and future relationships even if they can't be with me. No hard feelings from me at all. The ones that had no respect and just stopped talking to me and disappeared I have no respect for. I wouldn't want my son to be like you and I wouldn't what you as a roll model for him. I want my son to grow up being respectful of everyone he comes across in his life and to the women he will have relationships with. He needs to be open and honest about his feelings towards others even if they might hurt the other person. But I can tell you that I rather be hurt with the truth then have that person disappear or not respond back and always wonder why.
I am slowly feeling better now that I stopped taking prednisone. That drug used to react badly with me when I was younger and now I remember why I hated taking it. It really messes your system up and the side effects are way worse then then what it does to help. So will take this next week resting lots and taking things easier. Listening to my body will be key and getting back to normal will be a priority. My health is the most important thing I need to worry about.
Will keep you updated and until next time...
"Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated" ~ Confucius
I am learning to keep my thoughts more focused and not so scattered. It's hard and something I constantly battle with. Always learning to tackle the things I can change one by one. The ones that I can't I am learning to let go and not let bother me. Navigating life always has its challenges and learning lessons along the way but I feel like I am growing more as a person as time goes on.
Now that soccer provincials are over this weekend I am taking up yoga and work on learning that practice. I feel like it's the last piece of the puzzle and will help me move and think better. I am also looking at taking some courses this year in the fitness world so I can help others out there. I keep going back to it and it must be what I am to do. I am going to focus my races and not do them all next year. I know I keep saying that but one of these years I will follow thru on it. lol That's another work in progress. Lol
I am freaking excited to be heading back to Seattle April 22nd to do the Spartan Super on the 23rd. I fell in love with Seattle when we were there in October plus I loved the race course. Just my son and I are going on this adventure so will be fun. I am racing alone so will see what I can do and if you see me out there I will always gladly take help at an obstacle, your always welcome to join me and as always say HI!! Lol
I start racing season on March 19th doing a 5 mile along the Bow River in Calgary with my son. Will be a good test to see how my lungs are doing. I've only been able to get up to 5km and I hope I do better. So send me luck that day as I am going to need it. I am attempting 4 races in three weeks. I know I am crazy! lol My training is still sucking butt thanks to my awesome asthma... still no luck with running and to top it all off I am battling a chest cold.
I am pretty happy that the indoor soccer season is done. It was a challenging one with a multitude of difficulties that when the concerns were brought up it didn't help. I am hopeful that outdoor will be smoother, more fun and my son will learn more skills. My sons team went to Edmonton to play the soccer provincials. The two games on Saturday they lost but the game they played today they won 4-0 and played the best they ever had.
Well on that note I will update you and let you know how my first race of the season goes this coming weekend. Send me healing and good luck vibes as I am going to need it.
Until next time...
My life is a busy one... just trying to plan life around schedules has been hard and the rest of this month has its challenges. Where there is a will there is a way. Will get thru it regardless and these challenges just will make me stronger or more creative. I have been doing pretty good up until now. lol Least I think I have been. Maybe that hasn't been the case but in my mind I am thinking so lol. I am trying to not do it all as I know I need my alone time so I can keep somewhat sane. lol I didn't say I was normal as that is so not like me... I am unique. :) I look back at who I have become since the separation and see what I have come thru. I love everything about me cause it's me and I am living my true self. No games or drama... just me being me. I don't get stressed out very easy and let more things roll off my back. If things don't work out I say "ok lets try plan B" and see if it works and if it doesn't it wasn't in the cards. It's pretty cool looking back at all the changes and I am extremely grateful for everyone that has played a part in it.
So soccer is getting close to finishing up the indoor part luckily. I am getting ready for a break as I think my son is a little bit too before outdoor starts up end of April. My son's team is off to Edmonton in March for Provincials. He is pretty excited to be playing in them this year. Here's hoping his team can do well there.
Asthma.... well lets just say running is not going so well. My lungs are not happy at all. I am running out of ideas to try. I think I will jump back on my bike more and get my cardio that way. Learning to choose sleep more to see if that helps things. Trying to fit workouts in where and when I can. Weight lifting is going well and love those changes. Love seeing changes in my body and small increases in my weights. So if you have any suggestions for my asthma please let me know. I will try anything to get these lungs working better and happier.
Other then that things are just moving along and just tackling life as things come up.
Until next time...
Life lessons... So I had a great friend say some nice stuff about me and it came at a time I was feeling frustrated with my asthma and life.
Reading that made me tear up but also I totally get why relationships in the past never worked out even when I thought we would be together forever. I get it now how I was back then and negative all the time and how they couldn't be with me due to it. I am the same way now. I want positive people in my life and keep amazing things happening and goals to crush. When I am with a new person and if I see red flags I noticed I shut down and start to want to run away. I can meet a great nice guy but once the newness wears off they show their true colors and some treat me like I can't do anything, make me feel like I am not good enough, or tell me what to do all the time or want to change me to be more like them. I will never change for anyone. I also realized guys that are newly separated still need that time to get out and date a ton of people so they can figure out what they want. Plus if their divorce is high drama I don't want apart of it. I had my own and am almost out of mine I don't need to hear about another one. I have done that and know what I want and I am ready for a serious relationship with my new best friend. Guys post they want a strong independent chick but when they get one they can't handle it. I am not a scary person but don't want to waste my time or anyone else's if things don't look like they will go anywhere.
You need to make changes and add more positive people into your life so new opportunities arise. When one door closes a new one pops up and you life could lead into a different route.
Here is the text I got. Still blown away and felt like a total dork on how I responded. I am not posting this to brag about how wonderful I am but was so honored to have someone tell me this. I wanted to share how a friend had the guts and was honest with me. I respect that but was blown away by it all.
My last blog was a bit of rant on relationships. What I wrote about wasn't totally directed towards one person but I hear these stories from so many single people... women are not innocent either in this too. I just don't get the games and the way people treat others anymore. We just need to be respectful and act like better humans. Can't we just accept everyone for who they are without wanting to change them or tell them how to live their lives. If you feel you need to then your obviously with the wrong person. Dating is just soooo very hard these days. Its so hard to know what to do when you like someone. Some guys get turned off by stronger women who ask them out or make the first more. What do you do when you really like someone but not sure how they feel about you? Everyone has busy lives I get that especially me. I will make time for that special person but sometimes it's nice for the other person to reach out more. For me if they don't I take it as they are not interested in me for more then a friend. That's ok too. I back away and stop making an effort. I don't want to waste my time or the other persons time if things are looking like they won't work out more then friends. I Have changed and I dunno where I am going with this other then I am tired of dating and might be taking a break from it. Concentrate on my life.
So that leads me to my life.... wow exciting stuff I know. lol Asthma.... well lets just say it sucks! Pardon the pun but the one thing I could suck at I suck at breathing. Seriously why couldn't I have sucked at something else. I have it and I just keep dealing with it. I have had great days and then I have brutal days where I can't get a decent breath when I run or workout. I am working on my breathing techniques while running. Like I said some days are great and others not so good. I find when I get some decent sleep I breath a tad bit better but still not super great. Not sure what is going on with them yet. I just want to get back into training and get running further. Luckily I don't have my Spartan Beast until early May and the half marathon end of May. I still have some time to get the lungs happier. My body is feeling strong which is awesome and I am super pumped for race season to start so I can give each Spartan Race my all. I feel like this is my year to get some better times and to push myself harder. Now if the lungs can stop this crap things would be so much better. But don't worry... I always come back stronger and more determined. After all I am Unbroken!!
Until next time...
Not sure where I was going with this but I seemed to have come up with a double R thing for a title. That's what is going on with my life and I must feel the need to talk about it. Lucky you guys!! Lol
I started my new job and it's going well and a major learning curve. I like it but with all new things comes the brain overload, figuring out the best route there, planning workouts in and the ever so challenging soccer schedule my awesome son has. Don't get me wrong I love it all but will be better once I can fall into that routine. Once I have that then on weekends or free nights I can do my spontaneous stuff and random day trips that I so love to do. I miss having that balance. I am missing my consistent workouts. Getting up early has it challenges. Would be better if I could get to bed earlier at night and that is a goal I am working on. Working on my healthy eating and drinking enough water too. Everyday I get better at one piece of the puzzle. Slowly and surely I will get there. Seeing weight loss again due to my changes and not letting stress control my life has sure been helping.
Relationships.... Well were do I begin. Let's just say this whole dating thing and now online dating stuff is interesting. We all have our own lives before we meet and it feels like some people expect you to drop everything and include them in. I am a 100% full time single mom trying to make everyone happy along with keeping myself sane in this process. I don't get free weekends or a week off and a week on. It's all me all the time. No breaks unless I make them. Trying to keep my 12yr old sane in this process and trying to not mess him up along the way so he can be a successful man in life and his own relationships. Helping him accomplish his dreams and his full time year round competitive soccer and now racing goals. Plus following my own dreams because I am not going to stop living and holding my dreams back. I had 14 yrs of not able to be myself and be my true self. Some people can't handle my true self which is OK with me. I don't need people to like me anymore. I don't like everyone either. I don't need to be saved, fixed and I am not a dumb fragile flower. I don't like to feel demoralized or made to feel bad about myself because I am not good enough for a person. I am very smart, strong and independent. I have a massive heart and will help anyone that needs it. I like to feel appreciated like everyone else. I am sarcastic and super honest. What's with guys breaking up thru a text message or just plain out not responding back to a text. I find that rude. Why can't we act like adults and respect one and another and pick up the phone or do it in person? Have we really lost what it's like to be an adult and respect others? If your thinking about it please don't. It's a cowardly way to end things... Least give the other person some respect and pick up the phone to explain things and talk like people do. Don't leave them hanging and not respond either. Again a cowardly way to be and your just making yourself look like an ass. I just want to be me and have someone be themselves and make new memories together. I don't need to be completed, I am already a complete person. I am looking for my best friend, who as a team we can accomplish so many cool things together.
My life is a busy one...I don't see my friends often enough. I race lots as well and train. I just want to be me and have someone appreciate me for me. I always do the same as I know it works both ways. Relationships require work and it can't always be one sided. People will start to feel like they don't matter anymore. Texting is so hard too as you can't get your true feelings across and it leaves room for misinterpretation. I prefer the old school talking on the phone which I find has been hard to schedule with my crazy schedule.
So on that note I am still planning and registering for this years races and trying to figure it all out. Think I have it figured out now to just register for them all and my son wants to join me on a bunch as well. He needs a part time job to start paying for his own race fees. lol
Sorry for all the Meme's below but just ones that say how I feel.
Until next time...
So many people start the new year with all these resolutions and the new year new me crap. So many people fail and end up feeling resentment. Why don't more people start a new goal and keep improving on it. It doesn't matter the time of year to start something... pick a day and go for it. I also find taking baby steps to achieving your goals. If you go big at the start your also chancing the failure of your goal. Everyone is different though so you basically need to find a path that works for you. For me I am keeping on my journey... making small changes to get to my goals that I have had the last two years. I keep finding ways to help me get to my goal. One way wasn't working so I changed directions in hopes that the new way will work. It's all about finding balance and learning to listen to your body. That's been a huge thing for me this past year. Also realizing how stress negatively effects my body. I am amazed at how bad my body reacts to it and how I keep trying to make changes and it rebels. Changes won't work if I am extremely stressed. I finally understand that... slowly and surely I finally get it. lol
I am excited for the new year and what may lie ahead for me and my family. I feel like I am at the brink of something new and amazing. I am starting a new Job and am extremely excited for what doors it may open for me and what new things I will get to learn. Also looking forward to my racing goals, getting stronger and faster. Trying new races, repeating old ones and having fun with friends along the way. For once I am starting the year knowing I can go do a race with or without someone joining. I want to crush my previous Spartan Race times and I want to conquer more obstacles on my own. I want to lift heavier and finally start to kick my sugar addiction to the curb. I have lots of wants that are goals and I have put together the pieces to start to accomplish it. I also plan on including restorative or therapeutic yoga into my routine to increase flexibility and learning to relax more. So this isn't a "new me/resolution" it's just a revamp of my goals that I have been doing the last few years. New game plan. I think the new job will help me as well in this process.
So my first big goal was to accomplish on January 9th. I sat on my road bike and trainer for 5 hrs for a Ultra Spin raising money for MitoCanada. I am loving my bike again after taking a year off from doing triathlons and figure with a friend we will go for it! Which we did and we stayed the whole time. Pretty proud of ourselves for doing that. Makes other training on the bike seem easy. On April 30th with my son Ty and friends will run 15 km in prep of our Half Marathon Training. Mothers Day weekend I am heading back to Montana to tackle the Beast and Sprint again... can't wait to do way faster times there. Then we complete our Half Marathon on May 29th at the Calgary Scotiabank Marathon. So thinks it's covering around 65.56 km between April 30th and May 29th. Crazy but can't wait. I feel more ready to handle it all and I learnt so much from doing it last year that I know what to do differently. Plus I am finding my recovery is getting better and if I can keep my stress down and keep on these new stress relieving techniques I can see my racing getting better. I am looking forward to seeing how things will all work together. 2014 was just a start, 2015 was practice and 2016 is game time and kicking ass!
In looking back from my years races I like to do up stats on distance covered like I did last year. I did less races... only 15 but I covered a total of 218.58 kms or 135.81 miles. Last year was 17 races and 275.46 kms or 171.16 miles distance covered in those races. Of course all these stats don't include the distance I covered in my training around the races. I almost caught up to that distance in less races. It's pretty cool to see me doing this after everything I have been thru and so glad I am able to keep at it. Asthma you may like to test me along the way but asthma doesn't define who I am anymore. Asthma can't stop me from accomplishing my goals and dreams. Nothing will as I always overcome them no matter what. I am so strong and independent and love this life I am living and making for me and my son!! I truly am Unbroken and Strong!! Watch out world this Strong Momma is just getting warmed up!! AROO!!!!
This new year has me doing so many new things already. Did a 12km snowshoe in Banff AB with my son and friend Kathleen. Was a fun day and a great adventure. Lots of stories and we goofed off to out there.
Well think that is all and I am finally getting the first blog post of the year done. Once I get my routine down better with this new drive things will hopefully settle a bit down. Plus needing to add morning workouts in as I feel icky for not doing it a week. Time to jump back on... Half marathon training won't happen on its own. Lol
Wish me luck!!
Until next time...
I just realized that it's been a month since I last wrote anything... life has been busy and lots of major life changes to be going thru. I have also kept quiet a bit too as the news has been depressing. I am not going to get into a debate about my feelings and opinions towards everything that has been going on. I am only going to say why can't we spread PEACE!! Just one simple world that translates into all religions, demographics and just over all well being. You can be the most miserable person on the planet and not want to love yourself or others but you can help spread PEACE! I have seen so much hate being spread among friends and family members on social media and I won't be swept in it. Just be at peace with yourself and help be peaceful with others. Show more empathy and help each other out. That's it and all I want to say.
So many things have been going on in my life since I got back from Seattle. SOOOOO many changes as well. But I am excited and more open and ready for new challenges and experiences in 2016. I am scared don't get me wrong as I want to succeed and be successful but I also know it will have it's ups and downs and that part doesn't scare me anymore like it used to. I am slowly starting to realize why I was put on this planet and the gifts that I have and how I am to help those around me. As time goes on things just get better and better.... just like that song "Everything is Awesome"!
So this month has been busy to start with and I ran two 5km races with friends in less then 24hrs for two different charities. Not only was it so much fun with my new friends but it was even better getting to run them with my awesome Son. I love how he joins me and we can do these things together. What is also cool is how he is getting some of his friends into this fitness world too and race with him. I am really excited to run a half marathon with Ty and his friend in May. Will be a great time. So these races that I did this past weekend were fun. It started with a 5km around Spruce Meadows at night and getting to see their amazing Christmas light display. Then the next morning we ran in downtown Calgary for the Santa Shuffle. We had amazing weather. I attended my last Company Christmas Party that night and got to look all girly and wear heels. I even danced most of the night and had no klutzy accidents. Was a great time with a good friend of mine as my fake date and I needed at fun night like that even though it started a little on the poopy side. It all worked out and I am proud I can turn it around and not let it bother me or ruin my night. I am pretty proud of how much I have come along in this journey.
My son and I are doing our possibly last race next weekend on the 19th with friends for another good cause. Reason why I say possibly last race is that I am still contemplating the Resolution run New Years eve due to lack of other events to attend. Why not do something I love with the people I love to race and hang out with. We will be running 5k for Noah on his 5th Birthday that passed away last month. Our fellow Canadian Mudd Queens son had severe cerebral palsy and you can read her amazing story here: http://spartanrace.ca/latest-news/olivia-greenham-why-i-race/?lang=en so we are running this for him and her.
I am really looking forward to getting away for three days to the mountains with just my son for a much needed recharge get away. Can't wait to snowshoe and have some fun. The Dream Team will have some new adventures.
Until next time...
This post will be a little different then the others. I decided that I would tell my story in one post. If your new to the page and haven't been reading along my journey this will summarize why I do what I do. Lots of things have been going on in my life lately (good and bad) and lots of my life stuff I don't tell you awesome people about either. I have been feeling grateful a lot lately and with my struggles I also need to be reminded why I do what I do. I always know as much as I keep getting pooped on it's only because I can handle it and will overcome whatever life has to toss my way.
So that ties into Why I race...
I have found with racing it is a lot like my life. Growing up I had a pretty normal upbringing with family gatherings and lots of friends. I did live in the hospital due to my asthma and almost dying twice. Once I went to College things began to change for me. I had a tendency to follow the crowd and ended up in shitty situations. Thought I overcame those situations and was back to being myself. I went on to get married. Marriage was great at first until I had my son. He was the biggest blessing in my life. But with him coming into this world it brought problems into the marriage. My Ex became abusive, secretive and jealous of his first born son. It was mostly directed to me but then when I wasn't around my son got it too. I was un-happy with my life and I was gaining weight. My self-esteem became extremely low. I was never one to have much of one and I was a people pleaser. I also had to have everyone like me. I suffered from depression and PTSD after a major car accident that I was lucky to survive just before I got married (I am starting to think I have nine lives like a cat lol).
In 2012 we went on a family vacation to Maui and I fell in love with the place and seeing everyone running all over. Before that I was working out on my own trying to increase my lung capacity thru research. I was starting to lose weight again and my confidence started to increase. When we got back from Maui I was invited to join a learn to run program by a friend of mine. I decided to jump on board and give it a try. I ended up surviving the couch to 5 km program even though I felt like death wanted to take over and at times wished it had. lol I ran my first 5 km race three months after I started. I became instantly addicted! I kept up the running and increasing my distance. I wanted to push myself to see how far my asthma would let me go. I took up weight lifting with a personal trainer Lisa who is now a friend and still my coach. She was a blessing in my life and it's hard to believe we've known each other 4 years now. My marriage fell apart since I was becoming stronger and more confident. I wasn't going to be pushed around anymore. We both went our separate ways which was another blessing and I was left to live my life on my terms. I met a new friend during that transition and he introduced me to even more races that I didn't know existed or thought I could even possibly do. I started racing in Spartan races, triathlons and lots of other races in between. 2014 I completed 17 races which ranged from a 12 km Snowshoe race, three triathlons and one was an Olympic distance, some 10 km's, a bunch of fun 5 km's, 4 Spartans and ended up getting a trifecta first year in it, 3 half marathons and other fun mud races. I was addicted. I still am. lol
I love meeting new people thru this race journey that I normally wouldn't have met. People all over the country that I consider new friends. My confidence has tripled and I am no longer a people pleaser. I am who I am and not everyone has to like me and I sure don't like everyone either. The older I get the more the filter seems to diminish and I will stand up for what I believe in and for others. Much like these races that I race, my life is like one big spartan race. It has it's ups and downs, struggles and I carry some massive weight to get thru each challenge I come across. I come to a block and I can navigate thru it one way or the other but I always make it thru it and keep moving on. I will always be true to me and not change who I am even though I am a crazy unique and fun chick! lol I am starting to realize thru these challenges not only who I am but what type of person I am now. I used to be so shy and yes in certain situations I still am, but also more and more I get out there I am being a more confident not caring what others think of me person! I am learning to look after my body so I can keep doing these races. I will keep being open to new people and opportunities that come into my life. You just never know what new door will open and who/ what will be waiting for you.
2015 I have done 6 Spartan races and earning my double trifecta, tempted a Spartan Hurricane Heat, Did the Spartan 2 hr workout Tour, lots of fun mud races and other 5 km's. I really enjoy running races for charities. I ran 100 km in two months for Kids Cancer. I will be running two more races in December for two charities as well with my son and racing friends. Having a good time at certain races and making new amazing memories with friends. I am really looking forward to the races of 2016. New challenges for next year include my 12 yr old son and I doing a Half Marathon together in May. He has a dream to do it at that age so I am going to help him make it happen. I really am looking forward to training and running it together.
Until next time...
Some of my favorite quotes right now...
It's with mixed emotions that I say that my double trifecta is done. I am happy to get the much needed recovery time but also I am sad I have no more until 2016. With that I have new goals for the winter months in prep for the upcoming race season, still planning out what races I want to do and strategies for certain races I attend. I want to become faster, leaner and stronger... so that's my winter goal (loosing my stress belly... was almost gone). Starting back up on the meal prepping and going to be trying to cut a lot of sugar out of my diet. That itself is going to be one of the hardest things I do ( I say that as I am eating some wine gums lol). I am such a sugar addict. I am trying to cut down a bunch of cortisol I have in my body and the stress that I have been under these last few months (over 2yrs) have finally stopped.
I am happy to report my divorce is just waiting to be signed off by a judge but the hassle and the fighting between us has stopped. That is a massive release in itself. Finally having that control gone and me getting my control back 100% is an amazing feeling. Still going thru some of the release and I find after each of these races I released more. I am sure once I get the certificate saying I am divorced I will go thru a little more. But knowing I am me again (more improved me I might add) and feeling that freedom again is so awesome. I am truly blessed and so extremely grateful for everyone in my life new or old. I will make it thru whatever life's challenges throw at me one way or the other. I won't go down without a fight. I am a survivor of many things and a strong person. I am reminded of that lately by the people in my circle. I am so grateful for those people that are in my life who I can talk to and I can be open and honest with. People that will call me out on things and knows I can't hide anything from them. My lunch workout was just that today. Lisa is an amazing person in not only her knowledge of fitness but also in Life as well. Who has known me for 4 yrs now and seen the struggles I have been thru. She said I am Unbroken and I am reminded of a previous post about that very subject. Do you remember that movie as well? Well it truly hit home to me and that could have been easily been written about my life in its own unique way. Lisa sent me this video and it's one of my most favorite ones to watch. I can't watch it without tearing up. So if you watch it have some tissue ready if your like me. haha
Check it out below...
Wow what's with me... These last few blog posts start out so serious lately. I will be making a mental note to change that up and start with something funnier. Will end it with the serious stuff maybe. Lol
My last Spartan Race was the Super in Seattle. I gotta say I LOVED the course, location and well I got to go to Seattle for the first time!! HELLO!! What's not to like about that. We lucked out with the weather for the whole trip. They were calling for an 80% chance of rain for the race. We got none! Was a beautiful day and an awesome fun course. We were making great time up until the longest barbwire crawl that had a slip wall in the middle of it. I overcame my height fear on the wall to Sparta. So proud of myself for that one. Couldn't get three obstacles so another goal for next year to get better at them. The typical monkey bars, rope climb and the spear throw that I can get some of the time, but not this last time. The carrying obstacles are getting easier except the bucket brigade. I need to figure out a better way to carry that up hill so I feel stronger and can push thru it better. All in all it was a pretty great race and a great one to end the Spartans on. My racing gals were always fun as usual and so thankful for them. I got the nickname Big Bird/Super Grover... Big bird cause I am so tall but I really liked the Super Grover one. I see a theme in my future races for that. I may need to make a running costume for Super Grover. Haha
I had no issues with the memory rest either. My technique works awesome for me. I still remember it today.... ECHO 515 2943. Took me a little while to finally forget my Montana Beast memory one. Lol I am excited to see how much faster and easier I can do them next year. My asthma isn't an excuse and I want to get faster and not let my asthma dictate things anymore. I can do it and I have done it in the past few races so I am going to dig deeper and keep that fire burning. Time to stop making excuses and get serious about this and my other goals. Start completing somethings that have been hanging out here. Time to start learning new things and following my passion. Enough is enough and the time is now. Wait wasn't that slogan in a commercial or maybe it was in a political one. Lol I don't care it works for me.
My trip to Seattle with my son and parents was an awesome one. Being able to spend that time together making new memories was so great. I had never been to Seattle and fell in love with the place. So many cool things to see and the downtown feel is like Vancouver but better. My son Ty kept us entertained in the car with his voice impressions. Not sure where he gets his humor from but man he had us tearing up from laughing so hard. I am going to try and record some of it. There is never a dull moment hanging out with that cool dude. I am so blessed to be his momma! It was great seeing places that I hadn't been to since I was a kid and was even cooler showing Ty some of my best memories. He fell in love with Coeur D'Alene and I remembered why I love that place so much. I see a future trip there for us for sure. Stopped in Spokane on the way back and it was great seeing things again but everything looks so different in the fall. I want to head down that way in the summer for sure next time.
So I am having a good time getting back to reality and getting back on track with eating healthier again. The cooler fall days are making my lungs not too happy but that's normal for me until they get used to it again. My weekend was filled with relaxing and finally cleaning up the clutter in my house. Have three garbage bags of those and a bag of shoes to donate somewhere. More room in my closets and pantry. I post more of my day to day stuff on my Instagram account so pop over there and give me a follow if you want. On that note I will leave you and will write more about my new healthy changes I am making and seeing what I can do with this sugar addiction. Wish me luck or I will gladly take suggestions too!
Until next time...
Seattle Spartan Super Pics
Seattle/Coeur D'Alene Pics
I find with the month of September so many things in my life either start or come to a head and almost a breaking point. It starts with the great thing of getting back into routine, kids go back to school and the dreaded fall soccer starts up. I also have two Spartans that show up this month and tons of life things as well. I find it hard to juggle everything and after getting thru this month I can't be everything to everyone either. This month I don't have many alone days... OK they are almost non existent. It's a month of change and things coming or going. Just making it thru it relatively and close to sane is a miracle. My life struggles like everyone seemed to be taking the forefront of my life as things with my divorce were going along (FINALLY) but also finding out who my friends were and are not. Deciding what is important to me and what I need to let go of. During my hard races I have moments of clarity and can easily process stuff that I can make smart rational decisions that I can't seem to do anywhere else at times. Basically anytime I am on a mountain top I can or at a place I feel at home in. Those moments of struggling physically going up a mountain and being able to zone out helps what keep me going and as I do those moments or ah-ha moments happen. Things that I was in denial about suddenly seem clearer. It's so strange and I can't seem to find the words to explain it better. Not sure if any of you have those moments especially during a race.
OK enough of that serious talk and onto some race recaps. So race #1 this month was the Spartan Super in Red Deer AB. This is the first time I raced there as last year I was doing my Olympic Triathlon in beautiful Banff AB. I had also signed up for the Red Deer Hurricane Heat since I thought the first time I did the hurricane heat it wasn't torture enough I though I would go again. Well soccer messed my life up again and Ty had a soccer game moved to that same night. Anyways long story he played soccer and I went to Red Deer without him. Once I got to the hotel room I was starting to feel ill as the time went on. I ended up deciding to make the smart choice and not go to the hurricane heat and sleep instead as the race Saturday was more important. My Parents were awesome in driving Ty up after his soccer game and going back home. Saturday was the race and I was feeling a bit better in the morning... not my usual excited self. I was just feeling off. Anyways plugged away with my group and we were moving at a pretty great pace... helped each other over the obstacles and had lots of laughs along the way. Ended up having a ton of fun and felt better by the end. Sunday my Son did his youth Spartan Race. He LOVED it! I love how Western Canada has added this to their races for the 11-13 age category. It was awesome. They do the sprint course but they have yellow signs along the way that say to do this obstacle and some of the elite athletes run with them and help them along the way. Was a great experience overall. Just at the end it could have gone better as my son fell off the vertical cargo climb and sprained his ankle and the volunteer there said he was done. My friend Marcy ran over and helped him finish and had the best epic fire jump pic! He ended up getting his medal and shirt and was so proud of himself. He understands why I do these races now. We survived the weekend!!
Race #2 was the Spartan Beast at Sun Peaks Ski Resort in Kamloops BC. I was excited to see how I would tackle this mountain again. Last year I ran 23.46km in 5 1/2hrs and wanted to stay the same or do better. This year it was 26km, 34 obstacles and over 5000 ft in elevation gained. Well I ended up staying with a group to help them as much as I could.. it wasn't working well for me and my body was having issues with the cold and starting to seize up on me. The group we started with went down to a small group of 3. I felt bad for having to leave but this is after all a race and I needed to keep moving. We were plugging away and had made up some time by keeping our pace up. But then one of our three got injured and blew her knees out. It really sucks that Brandi blew out both of her knees because I could tell she wanted it as much as me and Yvonne. We ended up working away to get her down and had an awesome guy come along and give us a hand. We stopped and left her at a spot so we could send help up to her and get her to the medic tent. Now we were down to just the 2 of us. (there is a song about that isn't there. lol) Yvonne and I had a very short time to complete the last 6 to 8 km (unsure at that point) and 9 obstacles. Literally we had maybe 2hrs from the point we dropped Brandi off to finish before the time cut off. When we got halfway up the last brutal climb we found out that we had 1.5hrs to complete 4km. We made it to the top and sprinted down the mountain completing obstacles and carrying crap so fast. We dug deep deep down and found our inner warrior and fought to the bitter end. Guess what.... we bloody did it and had 5min to spare. I it so cool and amazing that when the time counts I can dig deep inside me and pull it off. I wasn't going to let my Double Trifecta dreams crumble when I was healthy and feeling strong. I will never be that close to not finishing when I know deep down inside me I could have finished at-least 3hrs before then. I had no injuries, my body felt strong and even my asthma was sort of behaving. I had no excuses other then I was trying to be nice to help the others. When we finished they ran out of Beast medals so had another disappointment. We will get it mailed so I guess that's ok but won't be the same.
So in looking back I have a few things that I learned... yes some hard lessons as well. I won't be staying to help the others if they can't go close to my pace. I will gladly help at an obstacle but I won't be slowing my pace down so drastically.... remember it is after all a race. I have been training all year to reach my double trifecta goal and I won't come that close again to almost losing it. I also won't be made to feel guilty for carrying on without them either. I know it totally sucks to have to be pulled from the mountain but a cut off is a cut off and it's due to the wildlife and everyone's safety. No other reasons and it's not because you did or didn't do something, it's be cause you couldn't keep up and finish on time plain and simple. I have heard some of the complaining and people need to be accountable for their actions it's not the races fault... it was a hard course so starting it with an injury was brutal. But as an injured person how can you live with yourself knowing you stopped a healthy person that could have finished the race so much earlier and you held them back and they lost their dream and the goals they were working so hard on all year?? Is it really fair to be pissed and upset at that person? Personally I don't think so. I am disappointed in myself because I stayed longer then I should have to help those that needed it. I want a do-over and give it another try. So with that in my head I am going to do the Canadian trifecta again and see how fast I can do these races next year. Oh and of course will be heading to Montana again as I love that course. I am going to do more fun ones, some trail ones and start mastering these Spartans.
I can't wait until I head to Seattle to tackle the Spartan Super on Oct. 17th because I am going there to give it all I have and see what I can pull off. With knowing now what I can do in Sun Peaks my brain can't hold me back anymore. I can push myself harder and do it safely.... Now I just need to start mastering some of these obstacles and I can race alone if I want. After all, year after year is all about improving my times and getting better. I found my inner beast and I am going to hold onto that fire and bring it out in my workouts and my races.
So on that note I leave with some of my favorite race pics.
Until next time...
Red Deer Spartan Super Pics
Sun Peaks Spartan Beast Pics
Yup you read it correctly... Mud Hero Sunday August 9th then the Spartan's the following weekend. I gotta say though... Mud Hero was a blast. When you take the serious out of it and just go and have fun with your friends it is such a great time. This year was all about the fun. My friend Kaire and I just went out and did what we could and took pictures along the way. We had the most fun in a long time and completely sober I might add. I am so glad she is still in my life and is truly one of my best friends. That experience made me realize we need to make time to see each other more. So like I said we had fun goofing off along the way and captured some fun pictures. Our kids did the kids race and got so muddy. They had a great time.
Well I did complete new Spartan last minute goals... accomplished way more crazy goals. Friday August 14th that night was the Spartan Hurricane Heat in Calgary and it was hard, pushed me to different levels and was the most amazing experience. I met some amazing new people and got to hang out with my usual amazing people. It was just so amazing!! lol I can't wait to do that again as it was such a rewarding and confidence building experience. OK so the whole weekend was awesome. I was sick the whole weekend so to see how I handled things that way was pretty cool too.
I ran the Spartan Sprint the next morning at 8:30 in a downpour. The rain started just after the elite heat started and progressively got worse as the morning went on. Even starting at the starting line we felt the rain pick up. The course was muddy and extremely slippery the whole entire way. As the morning went on obstacles were changed and deteriorated. The downhills turned into muddy water slides and the up hills turned into waterfalls. I thought I might be done after the first water slide as my awesome Reebok Terrain Super runners have great grips and I was able to stop and gain control. I stopped and as I was trying to get out of the way a lady crashed into my back. I felt slightly paralyzed and had issues getting back up. My friend Paul helped me up and I got moving again. I guess the pain in my back didn't bother me as I was going due to being so cold and having rain run into my eyes. I was able to push thru and go at a decent pace despite the trails being so muddy. The sandbag carry was modified so we didn't have to go down that steep hill and it was moved onto the flat land. Monkey bars were slippery and lots of injuries happened there. Same with the slippery wall. My friend Paul did amazing for his first one and kept up to me pretty good. We finished and had not bad times despite the conditions and running the Hurricane Heat the night before. I had a case of mild hypothermia and took me till later that day after several hot showers to warm up. With the weather being really cool my asthma felt amazing and I felt strong and like I could run for miles. The night before it was humid since we had rain before it started so I struggled during the hurricane heat and that was my downfall. Regardless it was still an amazing experience. I was sad for my son since he sprained his ankle before his youth race and wasn't able to compete in it.
I was thankful I booked holidays at the right time. The day after my son and I took off with my parents to Montana for our annual vacation at the condo. I needed that rest bad. We had a few bad days of smoke from the forest fires so once again my asthma was bothered. What was strange is that my asthma last and stayed pretty calm then I used to be. Goes to show with all these races and exercise my lungs are getting stronger to tackle things that bother it normally.
We came back and the smoke became worse. Really worse that Friday my asthma was starting to win and give up. Ended up having to take it easy to let my lungs heal and calm down.
Everything else is my life is going great. I am excited about some new things going on in it and excited to see how things will progress. So far it's been amazing. ;)
My next race isn't until September 12th in Red Deer where I will get the second pie piece at the Super. On my way to completing my first trifecta. Then end of September on the 26th I will go do the Beast in Sun Peaks and complete my Canadian Trifecta. October 17th I will head to Seattle and complete the Spartan Super there and finish my US trifecta for a Double Trifecta. I am excited to be able to do that and make all these amazing memories along the way. The new friendships I have made as well have been so great. I love being apart of this amazing community that is extremely supportive of each other and up lifting. I am truly blessed!
Until next time...
Spartan Race Pics
Yes Yes I did do it again... No I wasn't just trying to sing that song. I could totally use that song as my theme song for my life lol. I have now realized that I am officially crazy/insane. So you see I was just going along with my life and day to day things with work, being a kick-ass single Mom and dating and well something drastic happened! I know your thinking "holy crap what now" Well let me tell you. So I have been seeing my race friends all register and say they were going to be apart of this Spartan Hurricane Heat in Calgary next Friday night. I have always wanted to try one and it's mostly out of curiosity. Plus to experience something else that is different with the Spartan Race Community. So Spartan sent out an email about the Calgary Spartan next weekend and what we needed to know. Well in there they included a discount code... I know right it was for 50% off... that's like half price. lol *insert eye roll here* So as others that were on the fence like me all decided to take the plunge I got thinking about it more and more. Then yes I did it and registered for it. EEEEKKKKK At the time was excited and pumped then last night reality sunk in. haha yeah you know what I am talking about... that sinking holly shit what did I just fricken do feeling. Where your stomach is all up in knots and your feeling like you could throw up or be totally pumped. Yes well that was me last night. I was having crazy dreams all night too. I know I do it to myself and take full responsibility to my crazy/insane actions. So not only am I now doing the Hurricane Heat but I race at 8:30am Saturday morning completing the Sprint with my newbie buddy Paul (can't wait to break him in) and I have a time limit since my awesome son and Jr spartan in training is doing his youth spartan race which is said to be harder then previous years. Go big or go home right?? lol
This weekend is Mud Hero in Red Deer with my friend Kaire and our kids are doing the kids one as well. It's going to be one muddy race!! Woohoo I keep saying that this is my last year doing it but I am back this year for my 3rd one. I am a mud, race bling and new obstacle junkie. I admit it and not ever going to deny it. It's supposed to be hot that day we race and I am hoping my asthma co-operates for me and not act up. Least it's not a rush and just for fun. First two years was all about the time... this year is all about the fun. Camera is going to come so I hope to get some epic pictures like I do when I catch Kathleen in action. Sadly she and a bunch of others are not the same day but Kaire and I will have a blast. :)
I will try to update in between races but chances of that happening are slim. I am on holidays after the Spartans so will update sometime then.
The long weekend was amazing and relaxing and just what I needed. I got to visit with my buddy Colin and have loads of fun. We drank, went 4x4ing and shooting too. Oh yeah and we hiked in there too. Was so much fun. I really enjoy my time out there and am grateful for good friends in my life.
Have an awesome weekend making your own memories and living life to the fullest! AROO!
Until next time...
Long weekend Adventures
Wow OK so I have been slacking in the writing department for this month. hhhmmm now where do I begin. OK first off after having a disappointing Color me Rad I went and ran in the Rugged Maniac race on July 18th. It was awesome!! They had the perfect location (was even better since it was so close to home), you got your registration done super quick, the festival area was a lot of fun and yes they had a bunch of porta potties. The obstacles were a blast as well. I love the huge slide and the trampolines... I felt like spider-man. lol I am going to attempt to post the video my son took of me on a couple of the obstacles as they are funny. So Back to the race it was so much fun and I was racing with my fellow Canadian Mudd Queens which always make it a great time. I was pretty excited as my older Brother Ric just happened to be visiting the area that weekend and was able to make it out to watch. I think both he and my son had fun hanging out watching me. Next year I said they both are joining me.
So after that weekend of fun I signed up for the Spartan Workout Tour as it finally came to Calgary. That's right I did the two hour workout with my son and some of the Canadian Mudd Queens. Was a total blast but also so very hard. I had a wicked workout Friday night that got me going again and feeling stronger during a workout again. Was a great time with a lot of laughs with the girls. I discovered one thing about doing burpees on freshly cut grassy school field is that when doing burpees you need to turn your head sideways otherwise a blade of grass goes up high in your nose. You see I am so used to doing them on muddy rocky ground so that has never been an issue. Yes I am an awkward dork at times but it's all fun and it's who I am. No plans to change that about me.
That afternoon I went with my mom to a painting charity event that my friend and fellow Mudd Queen put on to raise money for our Mudd Queen Charity. Raising funds for kids cancer research and the 100k Relay Race. I actually painted a picture and I enjoyed doing it. I realized I need to be more fluid like and not so rigged. People say they like it and I am my worst critic but I am kinda proud that I painted it and it looks pretty normal. I want to do another one again soon and try my hand at another one.
With everything going on this past month my asthma has been pretty even and nothing major to report. Only had to take a puff once during rugged maniac and even that was towards the end when it was starting to heat up even more. I am pretty happy that it seems to still be calm and at times feel like I don't even have it. I can't forget that I do have it because I don't want to be somewhere without my drugs and get into trouble.
I've been sore from the workouts but I like that kind of sore feeling and I am still moving forward in a positive way. Living life on my terms has been very liberating. Sure like everyone else I go thru my ups and downs but I never stay there for very long despite everything that has been going on with me. I am following the right path and am always keeping my options open for any new opportunities that may come my way. You just never know what is around that corner waiting for you to discover. I found this article that explains the type of relationship I am looking for. It finally lays it out with how I have been feeling. I don't want to settle and get complacent. I don't want routine and where I loose myself. I have been there and I can't go back to that kind of relationship. Click HERE for the link to the article. As a smart friend of mine said "it doesn't tell you how to get that kind of relationship, you have to figure that out on your own. You need to make yourself happy and complete before that will open up to you". OK so maybe that wasn't his exact words but from all that he said that is how I took it all. It's so true and I am realize that myself. #icompleteme and no one else can. I get it and I am doing it. :)
You might have noticed some minor changes. First off I finally have my own domain name now. I know a big step. I wanted to add more to this site but it wasn't letting me so I upgraded and added my own domain which I am happy about. You might even notice a little different theme too. It was time for an upgrade and a change. I am really happy with how this layout and theme is working. It would be great if you could let me know what you think. I like to keep things fresh and updated.
Until next time...
Rugged Maniac Videos and Pictures
Spartan Workout Tour and other fun pics
June was a fairly busy month especially towards the end. With soccer as usual and two races completed we got around. Soccer wise for my son's team they have been moving between 2nd and 3rd place in their division which is so great despite the crappy reffing we have been experience.
June 20th my son and friend Jacqui made the drive up to Red Deer AB to partake in the 5K Foam Fest. We met up with some Canadian Mudd Queens and ran it with Kathleen. As usual Kathleen and I made it so much fun. I brought my camera along for the race and we got some really great pics. The race itself was very awesome and well organized. It was a massive fun time and I could do that course again and again it was so much fun. If it comes to your area you got to try it out. You won't regret it.
June 27th my son and I did the Color me RAD in Calgary and well lets just say this year (which is our third year) we were disappointed. Having one location to catch the shuttle to the race where as last year they had two locations. One in the south for us people. Then the shuttle to the race wasn't running very often and it was backlogged. The drive to the race on the shuttle was long. Once there they never called out when the waves were to start and also this year there was no bag check so we had to run with our stuff. Once they let people go we always got stopped at each color station. We did really like the liquid color mixed with the powder stuff. The setup itself was OK but this year they didn't have enough porta potties so the lineup was long. We decided three years was enough and it's time we move onto another race to do together. The first two years just ran way more smoothly and was just that much more fun.
Both races my knee held up really good and no major issues. Asthma was well controlled too. It's been great being able to enjoy these without too much worries. With my knee I only went around one obstacle at Foam Fest as I didn't want to aggravate it. The knee sleeve helps protect it and remind me a bit to not be a hero while doing these fun ones. My knee laser treatments are done and the knee is good to go again. So happy and relieved over that. I can giver again for the Spartans. I will also be able to still get my double trifecta.
My next race is July 18th at Rugged Maniac in Calgary with Jacqui, hopefully another friend Kaire and a bunch of the Canadian Mudd Queens. Can't wait and looking forward to trying another new race that came up here.
Not much else to report so will leave you with a few more pics from the last two races. Just looking forward to the next few weekends.
Until Next time...
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