New Year... New Me!!

1/18/2015

Yes I said it and like everyone else is trying to make changes at the beginning of the year. I usually try not to use the new year to start something new and in ways this transformation hasn't started this year but is continuing on from this past year and the major stuff started happening in the month of December. Yes I know I missed posting but it was a month of busyness but also a time to relax and change my mental mindset.

I did the Santa Shuffle and had a blast at the last year of the year and gotta say my lungs did amazing in the cold air... I had no issues with the lungs at all. I only took my Advair before and a shot of the Ventolin and away I went. Didn't need it again. I was blown away. My asthma is finally under control. Some days I feel like I don't have asthma anymore which is an amazing feeling. I think with all the preventative medicine I take and the exercise my lungs are getting healthier. My body was great and even my toe was good.... was a great race all around. That night I went to my Christmas party and even wore heels... yes I know heels and I even danced in heels too. Had a great night and had a blast dressing up looking girly! I surprised everyone at work too cause I don't dress like that. lol But you know what I loved getting dressed up. I need to do more of that.

I wrote my PTS exam and I passed part 1 of it and am so happy. Now I need to schedule part 2 and get certified once and for all. I closed the doors to my past and forgave the people I had issues with. Talk about a freeing experience... never had been able to do that before. I started to put future goals into plans and got things to help set me up on my new mindset. Had some great days at work winning things and a review too that came with some nice stuff as well.Can you believe I've been working for the same place for the last year and man has the year gone by fast. Had an amazing vacation away and was exactly what I needed at the right time. Was able to do more thinking and sort out things in my head. Kind of a meditation sort of way. The week off when we got back was able to go out and have some fun experiences as well. The two weeks away from work was a nice break that I needed badly. I plan on making more time for me to just do that and decompress.

Over the holidays I was able to get out and watch the movie Unbroken. If you haven't seen I recommend it. It really hit home for me on lots of things but also the positive side of situations. So I have been thru so much and much like Louie I have survived it all. But what it taught me is it may seem hard, crappy and never ending but to not let it get me down and never give up. Yes I don't give up very easily but I need to turn my down times around faster so I stop being on this huge roller coaster of emotions. The one quote in the movie that plays over in my head all the time is "if you can take it you can make it". I am living proof of that. I had a great cry after and that's when I had my ah-ha moment. I am so freaking strong and I realize it now. I can live my life the way I want to and I can handle anything that comes my way. I am me and you either like me or you don't... if you don't that's OK you don't have to. I also don't have to be a people pleaser or a people fixer either. I can offer my advice and its up to them to take it or not. If they don't I am ok with that too.

With being back to work I only worry about what I can do to fix things and if I can't I can't worry or stress over it. I walk out the doors and I enjoy the amazing views with the mountains I am so blessed to be able to see on my commute home. I wish I could put into words at how calm and peaceful I feel. Every time I tried to express it nothing comes out right. I am proud of myself for handling situations differently and everything else in my life all around. I feel like I am looking at life with HD glasses on now and I appreciate things a lot more then I used to. Every day is a gift and I want to experience everything I can.

Well I now have a crazy game plan for my years fitness goals. 16 weeks to kick my ass into shape and make a dream of mine a reality. I wont be doing a bunch of racing before the summer this year but after my goal I plan on making up for it. I am going to get my Canadian Trifecta for sure and am trying to figure out a US Trifecta late summer and fall. Regardless I am still up to 9 races this year but more keep popping up and I am sure I will find more to go to. lol

Part of my fitness journey this year I now have an amazing chiropractor to get my body moving better and I hope I have found my perfect person for my massages.I will find out later this month. Best part too they are just down the street from work. I am going to be smarter with my body this year as last year I was suffering body wise and I can't have that happen again. I felt broken and tired at times. I've had two sessions already and my body is moving much better and not much pain in places. I may be stubborn and wanting to keep going but I need to look after my body so I can keep going. Wish me luck!! lol

Yesterday my son and I took off on a day out in the mountains with a few ideas but no set game plan and just winged it all day. I don't know what it is but I feel so much better when I am out there. We ended up in Lake Louise to snowshoe and see the ice sculptures.Then we took off and headed to Johnston Canyon to see the frozen falls and hike around there. OK mini rant lol. So when hiking out in the fresh air and you have people smoking head of you. Makes it uncomfortable for those around especially for those with lung issues. If you want to find a non congested spot and do it there but not on a narrow path with others around. OK rant done lol. So we left there and had dinner in Banff and hit the usual Banff candy store. Was such a fun day and night!! Love un-planned spontaneous days.

I am going to train my body to start getting up early to workout before work so I hope that change will help me sleep better at night. Working out at night hasn't been helping me and my sleep has been suffering a bit more. Plus I have turned into a night owl and with my new training I need to maximize my days better. So I will workout early morning then work and have nights for my sons sports and the social life that I have now. Will need some major luck to get into the routine... once I do it will be great and my body responds better for morning workouts.I will post more of my journey as I get into it!

Oh and just over a month away from going on my awesome family vacation to Cali! Can't wait!

Until next time...

I finally understand this and I am finally living in the moment, I'm at peace and so calm. I over a month no roller coaster emotions! There were times I normally would have but I sailed right thru them. :)

Don't care if people don't accept me. I am me and you either like me or you don't. I'm going to be doing what makes me happy wether you like it or not!