I have to say that since I started this healthier fitness driven lifestyle I haven't had many major issues with my asthma. Sure there are bad days and days of struggle but nothing like I am experiencing tonight with my head cold. I haven't felt this way with the struggling of trying to breathe since I was younger when my asthma was a constant issue. I had thought that with increasing my lung capacity and all the exercising to make my lungs stronger I wouldn't have to experience that again. Boy am I ever wrong in thinking that.
I haven't had the shallow breathing this bad where it makes me feel dizzy constantly as well as my fingers and toes get so cold due to the lack of oxygen getting in. I think I have it settled down but if it doesn't look like I may have to make a trip to emerg to get a treatment. I haven't had one of those in years I am happy to say. They help but the after effects I don't enjoy much. Much like using your inhaler too much you get the jitters and the slightly faster heart beat that I feel like I am having to slow down.
I am upset I am missing my coached bike training session tomorrow morning but I know with how I feel it isn't worth it even trying. It really frustrates me and pisses me off too when people say just try and push thru it but it's easy for them to say when they have never experienced what it's like to force yourself to keep breathing even though your tired of struggling to get that next breathe. They way your body feels because your taking so many asthma meds to keep it under controlled so you don't have to go to the hospital. The body jitters and heart beat races and how you feel so wired but your soooo exhausted just trying to catch enough air into your body so you can stop feeling this way is a huge struggle.
It has nothing to do with a bad attitude or giving up it is just a time of struggle and constantly trying to calm things down that you have a tendacy to be a little cranky not a happy person. You just need a person to rub your back and just be there for you and help keep you calm and relaxed. It's also not that same when your lungs are bothered when your trying to race where you can take a few puffs of your inhaler and you can push on because it's a different type of lung issues because you started fine but when your sick it's a whole different story.
If I could have one wish.... Only one wish in the whole entire world I would wish for no asthma so people didn't have to suffer this way. This feeling brings back memories of when I was in the hospital when I almost died the second time. I know I am not that bad but some symptoms are the same that are giving me warning signs. Luckily I know what my limits are and I would get help faster now then back then but I also know more about my body and the disease then I did back then too.
Until next time......
I am a single mom with one son that has been living with asthma since I was 2yrs old. I also almost died three times due to severe asthma attacks! I don't let my asthma stop me from accomplishing new goals and living life to the fullest.
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