I know a little delayed in posting pictures but since my last post and the Spartan race I've been going thru so many things. Been doing a ton of thinking and starting to make some new choices. I had a great rest and this week I have finally started to find my mojo again. This past weekend I spent a ton of quality time with my son with going shopping, having dinner, going to a Movie (great movie too BTW... I recommend seeing Fury), then a hike out in mountains. Whenever I feel scattered or disjointed a day out there hiking and sitting on top of mountains always help me see things clearer. This time we did the mountain and water thing so I was able to be around both my calming elements. plus being out in the fresh air to clear my lungs, get some exercise and enjoy the fabulous fall weather. Plus it also helps my son and I re-group and talk about everything since life at home can get hectic during the week with both of our stuff going on.
So with all that I am happy to report that I have pulled myself out of the lazy funk I was in and this week been slowly making more positive changes. I had a great workout last night... yes I actually got one done. I know shocking hey! lol I also then sat down and created a month workout schedule that will possibly change and have to be modified once I know my sons indoor competitive soccer schedule. I came up with a game plan on what to do with myself during his hour and a half long practices and will get my cardio in and run on the indoor track. I joined The Calgary Road Runners group and will part-take in my first X-Country race with my friend Jacqui. Also from now until April they put on these X-Country races once or twice a month and will try to get those in. I have signed up for another race in December and possibly looking at doing the resolution run to bring in the new year on a healthy note. I will be signing up to write my PTS (Personal Training Specialist) exam in December and get certified once and for all. I have been planning my 2015 races and seeing what ones I want to do and figure out how to do them.
As you can see I am getting back to being me again but a much calmer not such a race crazy me! lol Here's to the journey continuing and seeing what the future brings.
Until Next time...
So is it normal to feel bla after having put so much training and energy into a crazy race schedule? I started triathlon training in December 2013 with my Natural High Tri Group and then race season started in March this year. I have been racing every month since then until the end of September.
I am feeling a little lost, slightly emotional at times and not sure what to do with myself. I find myself to be really lazy and put things off until I absolute need to get them done. I have no motivation or ambition but also things that normally would bother me don't (that last part isn't a bad thing). I have a bit of an I don't care whatever attitude. My head feels scattered and I find things are really hard to focus on.
I have tried to go down to my gym to workout but once I get there I just sit on my bench staring at the squat rack and end up not doing a single thing. Then head back upstairs and end up laying in bed watching TV. I haven't watched much TV all year and now I feel like I'm cramming all my missed shows in. I miss my workout mojo.... It's gone.... How do I get it back? How do I find the fun in working out again? Working out without a goal other then to maintain and stay healthy?
So maybe I'm not feeling a little lost, I'm feeling really lost. Just a person going thru the motions of life without feeling apart of it. Lots of thoughts about life going thru my head and wondering what is really going on. Maybe it's not just the lack of racing, maybe it's some hidden deep down issue that's bugging me but can't put my finger on it. I know my divorce process is taking such a long time and I keep waiting for that magic piece of paper to come to set me free... Reality is that I am already free and don't need that piece of paper to be happy. Why can't I be happy now and move on with my life. Why do I need that piece of paper to? Nothing is holding me back and I no way want to ever get back together with my ex but why am I hanging onto that notion of the paper setting me free? I am free and can choose what I want to do and be with who I want.
All I know is I need to find my working out mojo so I can get back to working out for fun. It's there somewhere I just need to dig deep and bring it back out.
Oh and I need to get those pics posted too, see another task I keep putting off.
Until next time...
That wasn't the plan at the start of this crazy journey.... just ended up that way. I have issues when it comes to registering for a race. I love the adrenaline or something. hahaha
Sitting here looking back to the year that started in March and where I ended up at, I am still in shock at all I have accomplished. Not only in racing but my life as well. I was told to never run or do anything like this thanks to having severe asthma and almost dying twice at a young age. I am grateful for so many people in my life that have helped along the way whether they knew they helped or not. To getting off my ass and making small changes on my own to a friend asking me to join a learn to run program. To hiring an amazing personal trainer to teach me what I am capable of with my body and truly showing me how strong I really am. To having a good friend help me along the way during races and to my triathlon group for their support and encouragement. To the old friends seeing them accomplish so much and inspiring me to strive to do better and show their support and to the new friends I made along the way. To the strangers I met at races who helped me calm down and to the new group (Canadian Mudd Queens)I am apart of and the new girls making me feel welcome in the group at my last race in BC. To my amazing parents, son and family who not only traveled with me to show their support but when they couldn't show it in their own way.. I didn't do this alone and wouldn't gotten very far without everyone involved and to that I am truly grateful and so blessed to have you all in my life.
OK enough of that stuff... onto the good stuff now. hahaha
So my last race (so I say it is but you know me I may toss in another one before the year is up... an easy 5k or something... funny saying 5k is easy now).... so my last race was the Spartan Beast at Sun Peaks BC. I gotta say it was a beast of a course that pushed me to the bitter end. I am shocked at how well I did it and feeling pretty proud too. My friend Mike was a huge help that kept me going, we make a great race team. Even when I wanted to stop so many times and the pain in my knee was so bad at times that I wanted to just give up and quit. But you know me I can't... I came there to accomplish a huge task and I wasn't going to stop until I got both my beast medal and the Spartan Trifecta Medal that I worked so hard at getting this year. The beast was my 4th and final spartan race and I was happy to finish with a time of 5:31:32. I placed 38th out of 70 in my new age category... yes I was bumped up and had to race in the 40-44 group... not bad for a recently turned, severe asthmatic, almost died twice, 40 yr old to get a time like that. Who knew!!! Never in a million years did I think I would be doing these races. Amazed and blessed that I can!!
14 Race Recap:
March - I did a 11km snowshoe race up a mountain in Lake Louise AB
March - Did my first 10mile indoor triathlon in Calgary AB
April - Spartan Super, Las Vegas NV
May - Spartan Sprint, Big Fork Montana
June - First outdoor Triathlon, Vulcan AB
June - Color me RAD 5k in Calgary AB
July - High River Half, Half Marathon
August - Mud Hero 6k, Red Deer AB
August - Spartan Sprint, Calgary AB
August - Run or Dye 5k Airdrie AB
September - Subaru Olympic Triathlon, Banff AB
September - Talk like a pirate day half marathon, My home virtual race
September - Spartan Beast (23km) Sun Peaks BC
Yes that's a lot of races and some major accomplishments. It didn't start out that way but once I got rolling I kept going. Lol
So the nerd in me wanted to know the total distance I covered in my races alone and not including all the training I did on my own. So as of right now I went 275.46km just in race distances alone. Now I'm curious to know the distance in training but sadly I wasn't documenting it very well so can't get a true idea. I do know it was a lot with the triathlon training we did between the runs, swimming and cycling.
My body made some major changes as well. Since January I lost a total of 19lbs and a ton of inches (I wished I kept better track of the inches lost). I continue to gain muscle and I am slowly getting abs. I am always changing my diet and eliminating more processed high sugar foods out of it and adding in more fresh real food. My grocery shopping has changed as I shop around the store and hang out in the fresh stuff now.
It's been a fun and crazy year. A year of change for me in all areas of life. Here is to a much needed non racing break. I am looking forward to working out in my gym to just work out without a purpose or goal other then to keep heathy and keep getting stronger.
I will post the beast pics soon once I download them all.
Until next time...
I am a single mom with one son that has been living with asthma since I was 2yrs old. I also almost died three times due to severe asthma attacks! I don't let my asthma stop me from accomplishing new goals and living life to the fullest.
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