I keep travelling all over completing a bunch more races. In fact this past weekend I covered 746.9km in two days doing just that. This past weekend I raced at the 5k Foam Fest with my son Ty and as always we had a great time despite the rainy weather. Did good after having my physiotherapist appointment a few days before. We then drove the 2hrs back home from Red Deer so I could head to a friends place in Cochrane that night to save some driving time Sunday morning. Sunday morning we went to Canmore and ran the Rundle's Revenge 12.5km trail race at the Canmore Nordic Center. Amazing time and we did awesome despite starting out with calf cramps in my right leg right after we started. I pushed thru and realized I LOVE LOVE running the trails thru the trees. Trail running made me fall in love with running again. After doing the half marathon I realized I hate pavement running. It's hard and it sucks. Lol Running thru the trees and flying over stumps and rocks is such a blast. Going up sucks but the coming down I was getting faster and faster. I can't wait to run that race again next year. My asthma this past weekend was amazing and I can feel my lungs getting stronger. It was awesome but we also had a bit cooler weather and that usually helps me.

Next year I am slowing down and doing only a few races. Want to do more trail races and might not even do a spartan race..... I know your like...WHAT!?!? Yes I AM feeling ok. I was supposed to take this year to rest and I haven't and in fact I keep adding to my already long list. I want to volunteer at Spartans in the US so I can still be apart of it but also help give back at my favourite places to race that brought so much to my life.

Racing and getting into this healthy lifestyle has helped me so much thru my divorce and helping me find myself. Brought so many new and amazing people into my life. Got to take me places I haven't been and shown me I have what it takes to accomplish my goals. Made me mentally, physically strong and learning more about my body and what makes it work more efficient. I don't know where I would be in life if I didn't find it. I went into my separation a mess, lost, scared and angry. I had to find myself again and learn that just because I probably won't know the "whys" that I learnt to let it go and forgive. I don't like what happened during the time being married but forgiving him gave me my power back and once I did that I made massive and faster changes.

Even shitty marriages you need to grieve the loss and go thru all the emotions. It was a huge part of your past, things were done and said and you need to deal with it, learn from it so you don't bring that into new relationships and move on. You can't change the past you can only learn from it. If you were hurt and lied too you can't think everyone is that way and as hard as it is you have to learn to trust again. Sure your going to get hurt but you could also miss an awesome opportunity/person if you don't. Life isn't perfect and timing isn't either. Being scared is normal but sometimes you just have to do it and hope that things work out. It takes two compete people to make a relationship work. No lies and no trying to change them, just help them see their true potential and help them grow as a person. Working together as a team will only make your relationship stronger.

As as you can see I have gone thru a ton of changes. But I am me... I'm not trying to be something I'm not. Just me being 100% real, open and honest.

I leave you with a few of my fav pics from the races competed. They were a lot of fun!

​Until next time..

As time goes by I am always looking back to see how far I have come and how my life keeps changing. I am always grateful for the experiences that happen to me whether they are good or bad. I also know the bad never lasts and the good eventually comes back. Since March my life keeps getting better and better. New people and my past finally closed. New goals accomplished and more things learnt about myself and how I do/handle things. In a recent conversation with a new person in my life I am reminded that timing is never perfect like life. Some things take time and I am learning to become more patient to those that deserve it and in my everyday life as well. I find I handle things more calmly,  identify certain things better and working on re-training my brain to stop looking for issues or thinking everyone is going to hurt me. I am doing much better at the self sabotage and letting things happen naturally in life. Like everything nothing happens fast and sure things are going to happen that are out of my control. I can just control how I handle them. 

I have completed 5 races in just over a month. I have some crazy stats posted below about the distance I have covered during that time not including the training distances.

May 29th I ran my 4th Half Marathon... the first in over a year. My previous three half marathons were done a lot faster. My personal best was 2:24:56. I was feeling a little sorry for myself with my time this year of 3:02:20. A friend that has known me so long... before I was married and knew the old me told me that those previous times were done on lungs that were stronger. My asthma setback in March made them weak again and I did great for having weak lungs. He said I was doing amazing for doing the last four races that weren't easy ones either. I stopped feeling sorry for myself and realized he was right. I was being pathetic and that I should have been proud to finish as fast as I did with the weaker lungs I have now. During the race I felt not bad the first half and had my best start to it. Had issues the second half with lungs and my body. Hip started acting out and my lungs had their moments too and didn't want me to forget about them. It was getting hotter the second half and I do crappy when I start over heat.

I am extremely proud of my Son Ty and his friend Braiden for running their first Half Marathon and doing it in a time of 2:41:20. The only 12yr olds there running it. Super proud Mom moment that I wished I could have been there to see him finish. Was shocked to see him waiting for me just passed the medals. Made me break down and cry. OK truth is I cried a lot Sunday.... during the race and after.

I am seeing my lung specialist that was given to me after my severe asthma attack back in March. I forgot how hard the breathing tests were to do but am happy they didn't spark any asthma attacks. I don't like four shots of ventoline as it makes my heart race and gives me the jitters. I get to try new drugs since the ones I have been on for soooo many years. Nervous to try them but it might be what I need to breathe better.

I am getting back on track with training now that I have had a week off and saw my physiotherapist. Typical leg tightness causing some issues but I wasn't as bad as she thought I might be. Hopefully soon things settle down. Going to run more at lunches and head to the stairs and run those. Also working in my workouts too at home around my work and soccer schedule. Slowly getting there. Need to gear up for my big race at the end of the month.

​Until next time...