This post will be a little different then I've done in the past. I feel like I need to get my thoughts out there to be known and to hold me accountable for my future goals. This weekend was a big weekend for me mentally and spiritually.
Yes your read right... I completed race number five last weekend. For the first time in racing I was calm and excited. Not many nervous gitters at all. It's strange for me but I felt confident and was just there to do my best no matter what the outcome was. I must say I had a blast! I am also freaking happy to report that I never once used my asthma meds while racing. I took the usual before we left the house but nothing while racing. So the first tri wasn't just a fluke with not needing it. Was awesome seeing majority of my tri group there supporting each other and friends there doing their first one too. Was feeling super proud of everyone there. The Vulcan Tinman Tri was a great time and I can't wait to do it again next year. My son did his first U13 triathlon and he rocked it. I was such a proud momma. He is really coming out of his box and learning to experience life. Learning there is more to life and to always try new things.
This whole experience with my son and I keeps bring us closer together. He talks to me about anything... Yes even too much info but I rather have that then not telling me anything. He told me the other night on our way to another soccer thing for him that he was proud of me and said I was strong in three ways. I have a strong body, strong mind and a strong heart. He made me tear up will driving. I am blessed with such an amazing son who has come so far in a short period of time. So with all this driving I've been doing for him and feeling run down it made me realize he is worth it and I wouldn't change anything. He also told me I rock at being a mom and a dad. Lol silly kid.
Personally still going thru changes and working thru my past. Happy to report as I work thru things and put them away once and for all I am happier and becoming a more positive person without it becoming work now. It's coming more naturally now. I am not having as many nightmares anymore and my dreams are turning into happier ones where great things happen to me. Life though has been that way too where I am experiencing better and happier things. I am loving myself more, working out more at home now that I can and happy seeing changes in my body already. I like getting an awesome workout in and feeling accomplished and even better when you start seeing results faster too. I just seeing things different and better each week it gets easier and easier. My house is looking amazing too and I've been busy in my flower beds... I just need to get the grass cut if it can stop raining when I am actually at home. Lately it hasn't worked out yet.
I am grateful for my friends old and new that are in my life and keep in touch with me. Thankfull for spontaneous nights out and joking around at work. I am happy that my ankle is starting to feel a bit better finally after having another week off it. The taping has really helped now if the swelling can stay down it will be perfect.
I am contemplating my half marathon race on July 1st due to my ankle and I have a run on June 28th with my son that I will do even if we have to walk it. We had so much fun doing it last year. I guess wait and see how things play out and take it from there. I have July off so can rest it more since I don't have a race until August 9th. I am looking forward to a break in July when we go on vacation to get away from everything. It's been needed badly for awhile now.
I am just happy to report things are going well and I am enjoying where I am in my life right now. I haven't felt like this in many many years. It thanks to all the people that have come into my life and especially my parents for being there thru it all and putting up with all the crazy stuff. Lol words can't express how grateful I am for them.
On that note I will leave it there. Will keep you posted one what I decide about my half marathon. I am thinking positive thoughts about it.
Until next time...
I've been wanting to write a blog post for some time but having internet issues at home hasn't been ideal but we are surviving.
Well what can I say... May was an interesting month. It seems to be my month of transitions. Mike and I decided to stay friends as we both enjoy each other's company and want to support each other in life's challenges. We needed each other to get thru some life stuff and to get where we are today. I'm still looking forward to our races together. I've made lots of realizations since this came about and there was a reason he came into my life. I don't regret it one bit and look forward to having a new friend.
Last week I dealt with some past issues and was able to finally get closure on my past. I feel free and more excited for my future. I can't explain how I feel but I guess I am feeling closer to the real improved more grown up me. Who knew! Lol One big obstacle to tackle is my divorce... Get that done with once and for all. It's time and I'm ready. Won't be easy but I will get thru it. I will have storms and good times and I know I can get thru any storm that comes my way and that it's not going to last forever.
Couple weeks ago I crashed my new road bike and sprained my ankle. It still bothers me a bit but it feels stable. Just swells up all the time. Saturday I race so I've been resting it all week. Not used to clip shoes on it and riding outdoors. I'm happy to report I'm feeling good now and this past Sunday did 18km. It doesn't make me so nervous riding it.
Hmmm what else... Asthma has been good so far even with the biking and running. I was able to push thru the coached run this past Sunday even though the air felt muggy and thick.
Oh I got my gym equipment delivered and installed this week. LOVE it!! Can't wait to knock out some killer workouts again and get back into weight training. One part I've missed badly!
I'm now signed up for my last and final race.... I'm doing the Calgary Spartan Sprint with a friend who has never done one. I'm excited to go and help her thru it.. 4 Spartans this year... I love them and can't wait to try a Canadian one before I do the beast. I have a race every weekend in August but one. I know I have problems... There are more worse things I could be addicted too.
Busy being a soccer Mom but enjoying seeing my son learn and grow. He is able to improve his skills and has been making some great moves. His team is now 3-1 so far. Here's hoping they make provincials.
So there all caught up... Nervous but excited about Saturday. I'm just going to go and do my best. Looking forward to seeing what else comes my way. I am finally comfortable being with me and liking what I see when I look in the mirror. I plan on keeping on the healthier eating and working out lifestyle. I am wanting to transform my body more but that will come with time. Transformations don't happen overnight. I'm a work in progress. Lol
Until next time...
I am a single mom with one son that has been living with asthma since I was 2yrs old. I also almost died three times due to severe asthma attacks! I don't let my asthma stop me from accomplishing new goals and living life to the fullest.
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