Progress..... That basically sums up my life right now. I am half way to my goal on my workouts, in limbo on my work contract, divorce is closer but not done, school I just need to stop the mental block and just get it bloody done and me as a person just keeps moving on and plugging away at things trying to get to the end of some of them. I am feeling frustrated  and in limbo and with me being how I am I am not very comfortable in that spot. I like to know and I like things to move along faster to get resolved. I am however learning to get used to things being this way as it will be my life for a bit. Some days are easier then others but in the end I am grateful for who I have in my life and overall the quality of my life. I wake up each morning only to worry about what I can control and the things I can't to just wait it out. No sense stressing when you have no control. 

This week has been an interesting one to say the least. Last weekend was interesting too as well. I know I am saying interesting lots. lol So my Friday night workout was awesome as usual and my legs (hammies and glutes) were pretty sore but I love that feeling. Saturday I could hardly walk but I did and then Sunday came along. I decided to get my upper body workout done and then spontaneously decided to go on a solo hike in Kananaskis on a new route I've never done. Well with sore legs I picked the crazy one that was basically straight up the mountain. Took me longer then it should have but I did it. Even in the middle of a snow storm. Luckily I was prepared with the proper equipment. Go from wearing flip flops the day before to a blizzard on the mountain. Crazy Alberta weather! Legs were jelly afterwards but I had the absolutely longest Epsom salt soak And after felt amazing. Unfortunately I woke up the next day with a sinus infection but I got my rest day in without it bothering me too much to not workout. With the weather changes my asthma has been acting up more and reminding me I still have the disease.

With my sinus infection I still got my workouts in. Had my workout with my trainer Lisa and despite feeling frustrated it felt good after. I always feel better after. She has the cutest little assistant which is a nice distraction. I need to focus on me and stopping my head from holding me back. I need to take what I do during a race with my determination of pushing thru and bring it into my workouts. My head block is stopping me from improving and I need to get rid of it and focus more.

I got new protein powder and supplements too last weekend and I am already seeing a change in my body. The best part I can pop into GNC or another store to get them. It's amazing when you can find the right combination for you and how much better you feel.

This week I got new products to try. Well one I finally got the product after I was part of the kickstarter campaign last year to help them get the product out. I was apart of Barbell Jeans and I gotta say I absolutely LOVE them. They are the most comfortable jeans I have ever owned. They stretch and move with you and are made for an athletic body. I finally have skinny jeans that are long enough for my legs and fit me perfectly! I could wear them for days they are that comfortable. If your looking for jeans that fit you.. Try them out you won't be disappointed. Here is the link:  http://www.barbellapparel.com/

I am also trying this new face cream my friend Rhonda introduced me to. I took before and will take afters. I am seeing a difference and my face finally clearing up. I always have breakouts in a couple spots and they are slowly going away. I face is looking smoother and brighter. I am only on the night cream but am now wishing I had the daytime one too. I am not a brand partner at all but if you want to check it out yourself here is the link : http://neriumproducts.com/zitsbegone/ 

I am always on the lookout for new products to try and it can be anything. If you come across anything let me know I would be happy to try them out.

I took progress pictures of my transformation and I gotta say despite everything I am finally seeing new changes. I went out for drinks with friends last night and after talking to Tom we came to the realization that I am stronger when my arms are close in to my body but when my arms are more open I am probably feeling vulnerable and my mental block pops in saying I can't even though I keep telling myself that I can. Either way it's something I will keep working on and trying to break thru it. I will keep pushing on and will get there. I won't back down from getting to my goals.

Until next time...

I wanted to write a post right after I got back from the most amazing and fun vacation with my family, but coming back to reality and getting back into routine was harder. lol Like with most vacations you never want to come home. We flew into San Diego and stayed in a place called Escondido that is just outside of the city. Gorgeous villa we had and plenty of room in it for the four of us. We did lots of the touristy stuff like Disneyland, USS Midway and of course Sea World.  When we went to Sea World I was able to get my son and I into the Dolphin Interaction Experience and we lucked out with it only being us two in the group. We got to swim, train, feed, hug, kiss and play with the amazing Dolphins. It was such an awesome experience to be in the water with them, see their unique personalities and learn as much as we could. I didn't want the time to ever end! They got a ton of great pictures of us and what was even better was experiencing it with my son. A memory we both with cherish forever.

Another one of the great things we did and kinda crazy thing was that we drove up to San Jose for a night to watch the Sharks play the Red Wings. You see my son is a massive Sharks fan since he was really little. Well I ended up getting tickets to the game before Christmas and got us Row 9 from the ice right next to the shark head that comes down where the players skate thru. He got to see his favorite players and I bought him a sharks hat too. The four of us had a great time despite the Red Wings winning but that made my Brother Ric happy! lol Oh I almost forgot I also got my sons picture up on the big screen too before the game started!! I know I am an awesome Mom!! lol My son and I were so grateful to have had the trip with my parents and being able to spend the time with them but also I got to show my son all the cool memories I had when I was there last at his age. 

So like I said getting back into routine was a challenge but I never derailed and I jumped on board. Got up at 5:30 every morning to work out and kept up will meal prepping too for the day. Had a wicked workout with my trainer one night that was awesome despite feeling weak but like I say I am still moving and it's better then doing nothing! Even on holidays I did what I could when I can. I only gained about 3 lbs from the trip but my trainer said that could have been just from water retention and my eating changing a bit. I enjoyed myself but I also made healthy choices when I could. No mac and cheese hot dog for me like my son had. lol 

I love my life now and I always look back on where I started and reflect on the massive changes I have been thru, how strong I really am and how determined I can and will be. I've been enjoying the new/old me now and I love the person I've become. I am emotional, stubborn, determined, loving, caring, strong person. I show my sassy side a lot more now, I am more honest and open now in all aspects of my life. If people can't handle me then they don't need to be in my life. I am who I am and I am not going to change for anyone. Take me as I am or move on. I don't want to change anyone and I don't want any to change me. I love meeting new people, they always seem to add a new positive element to my life in some way. I just want to keep moving on, trying new things and doing a variety of things as I go along this journey! I am at total peace with myself still and it's been an amazing journey thus far.... can't wait to see what new things happen in my life as the days move on.... oh and racing season starts soon too... it's late for me as I would have had a race by now! lol

My goal for this week is getting to bed at the same time every night so I can get consistent and try to get sleep back into my routine. I was before holidays off and on but I need to really get control of it and get more rest so my workouts and daily living gets better for me. Wish me luck!! I need all the help I can get!

On that note I think it's time I finish this post up as it's been a longer one this time. So much to say and many great things haven happened I wanted to share it all with you! Hope you enjoy some of the pictures I posted! :)

Until next time...