My life is a busy one... just trying to plan life around schedules has been hard and the rest of this month has its challenges. Where there is a will there is a way. Will get thru it regardless and these challenges just will make me stronger or more creative. I have been doing pretty good up until now. lol Least I think I have been. Maybe that hasn't been the case but in my mind I am thinking so lol. I am trying to not do it all as I know I need my alone time so I can keep somewhat sane. lol I didn't say I was normal as that is so not like me... I am unique. :) I look back at who I have become since the separation and see what I have come thru. I love everything about me cause it's me and I am living my true self. No games or drama... just me being me. I don't get stressed out very easy and let more things roll off my back. If things don't work out I say "ok lets try plan B" and see if it works and if it doesn't it wasn't in the cards. It's pretty cool looking back at all the changes and I am extremely grateful for everyone that has played a part in it.

So soccer is getting close to finishing up the indoor part luckily. I am getting ready for a break as I think my son is a little bit too before outdoor starts up end of April. My son's team is off to Edmonton in March for Provincials. He is pretty excited to be playing in them this year. Here's hoping his team can do well there.

Asthma.... well lets just say running is not going so well. My lungs are not happy at all. I am running out of ideas to try. I think I will jump back on my bike more and get my cardio that way. Learning to choose sleep more to see if that helps things. Trying to fit workouts in where and when I can. Weight lifting is going well and love those changes. Love seeing changes in my body and small increases in my weights. So if you have any suggestions for my asthma please let me know. I will try anything to get these lungs working better and happier.

Other then that things are just moving along and just tackling life as things come up.

​Until next time...

Life lessons... So I had a great friend say some nice stuff about me and it came at a time I was feeling frustrated with my asthma and life.

Reading that made me tear up but also I totally get why relationships in the past never worked out even when I thought we would be together forever. I get it now how I was back then and negative all the time and how they couldn't be with me due to it. I am the same way now. I want positive people in my life and keep amazing things happening and goals to crush. When I am with a new person and if I see red flags I noticed I shut down and start to want to run away. I can meet a great nice guy but once the newness wears off they show their true colors and some treat me like I can't do anything, make me feel like I am not good enough, or tell me what to do all the time or want to change me to be more like them. I will never change for anyone. I also realized guys that are newly separated still need that time to get out and date a ton of people so they can figure out what they want. Plus if their divorce is high drama I don't want apart of it. I had my own and am almost out of mine I don't need to hear about another one. I have done that and know what I want and I am ready for a serious relationship with my new best friend. Guys post they want a strong independent chick but when they get one they can't handle it. I am not a scary person but don't want to waste my time or anyone else's if things don't look like they will go anywhere.

You need to make changes and add more positive people into your life so new opportunities arise. When one door closes a new one pops up and you life could lead into a different route.

Here is the text I got. Still blown away and felt like a total dork on how I responded. I am not posting this to brag about how wonderful I am but was so honored to have someone tell me this. I wanted to share how a friend had the guts and was honest with me. I respect that but was blown away by it all.

My last blog was a bit of rant on relationships. What I wrote about wasn't totally directed towards one person but I hear these stories from so many single people... women are not innocent either in this too. I just don't get the games and the way people treat others anymore. We just need to be respectful and act like better humans. Can't we just accept everyone for who they are without wanting to change them or tell them how to live their lives. If you feel you need to then your obviously with the wrong person. Dating is just soooo very hard these days. Its so hard to know what to do when you like someone. Some guys get turned off by stronger women who ask them out or make the first more. What do you do when you really like someone but not sure how they feel about you? Everyone has busy lives I get that especially me. I will make time for that special person but sometimes it's nice for the other person to reach out more. For me if they don't I take it as they are not interested in me for more then a friend. That's ok too. I back away and stop making an effort. I don't want to waste my time or the other persons time if things are looking like they won't work out more then friends. I Have changed and I dunno where I am going with this other then I am tired of dating and might be taking a break from it. Concentrate on my life.

So that leads me to my life.... wow exciting stuff I know. lol Asthma.... well lets just say it sucks! Pardon the pun but the one thing I could suck at I suck at breathing. Seriously why couldn't I have sucked at something else. I have it and I just keep dealing with it. I have had great days and then I have brutal days where I can't get a decent breath when I run or workout. I am working on my breathing techniques while running. Like I said some days are great and others not so good. I find when I get some decent sleep I breath a tad bit better but still not super great. Not sure what is going on with them yet. I just want to get back into training and get running further. Luckily I don't have my Spartan Beast until early May and the half marathon end of May. I still have some time to get the lungs happier. My body is feeling strong which is awesome and I am super pumped for race season to start so I can give each Spartan Race my all. I feel like this is my year to get some better times and to push myself harder. Now if the lungs can stop this crap things would be so much better. But don't worry... I always come back stronger and more determined. After all I am Unbroken!!

Until next time...