Not sure where I was going with this but I seemed to have come up with a double R thing for a title. That's what is going on with my life and I must feel the need to talk about it. Lucky you guys!! Lol

I started my new job and it's going well and a major learning curve. I like it but with all new things comes the brain overload, figuring out the best route there, planning workouts in and the ever so challenging soccer schedule my awesome son has. Don't get me wrong I love it all but will be better once I can fall into that routine. Once I have that then on weekends or free nights I can do my spontaneous stuff and random day trips that I so love to do. I miss having that balance. I am missing my consistent workouts. Getting up early has it challenges. Would be better if I could get to bed earlier at night and that is a goal I am working on. Working on my healthy eating and drinking enough water too. Everyday I get better at one piece of the puzzle. Slowly and surely I will get there. Seeing weight loss again due to my changes and not letting stress control my life has sure been helping.

Relationships.... Well were do I begin. Let's just say this whole dating thing and now online dating stuff is interesting. We all have our own lives before we meet and it feels like some people expect you to drop everything and include them in. I am a 100% full time single mom trying to make everyone happy along with keeping myself sane in this process. I don't get free weekends or a week off and a week on. It's all me all the time. No breaks unless I make them. Trying to keep my 12yr old sane in this process and trying to not mess him up along the way so he can be a successful man in life and his own relationships. Helping him accomplish his dreams and his full time year round competitive soccer and now racing goals. Plus following my own dreams because I am not going to stop living and holding my dreams back. I had 14 yrs of not able to be myself and be my true self. Some people can't handle my true self which is OK with me. I don't need people to like me anymore. I don't like everyone either. I don't need to be saved, fixed and I am not a dumb fragile flower. I don't like to feel demoralized or made to feel bad about myself because I am not good enough for a person. I am very smart, strong and independent. I have a massive heart and will help anyone that needs it. I like to feel appreciated like everyone else. I am sarcastic and super honest. What's with guys breaking up thru a text message or just plain out not responding back to a text. I find that rude. Why can't we act like adults and respect one and another and pick up the phone or do it in person? Have we really lost what it's like to be an adult and respect others? If your thinking about it please don't. It's a cowardly way to end things... Least give the other person some respect and pick up the phone to explain things and talk like people do. Don't leave them hanging and not respond either. Again a cowardly way to be and your just making yourself look like an ass. I just want to be me and have someone be themselves and make new memories together. I don't need to be completed, I am already a complete person. I am looking for my best friend, who as a team we can accomplish so many cool things together.

My life is a busy one...I don't see my friends often enough. I race lots as well and train. I just want to be me and have someone appreciate me for me. I always do the same as I know it works both ways. Relationships require work and it can't always be one sided. People will start to feel like they don't matter anymore. Texting is so hard too as you can't get your true feelings across and it leaves room for misinterpretation. I prefer the old school talking on the phone which I find has been hard to schedule with my crazy schedule.

So on that note I am still planning and registering for this years races and trying to figure it all out. Think I have it figured out now to just register for them all and my son wants to join me on a bunch as well. He needs a part time job to start paying for his own race fees. lol

Sorry for all the Meme's below but just ones that say how I feel.

Until next time...

So many people start the new year with all these resolutions and the new year new me crap. So many people fail and end up feeling resentment. Why don't more people start a new goal and keep improving on it. It doesn't matter the time of year to start something... pick a day and go for it. I also find taking baby steps to achieving your goals. If you go big at the start your also chancing the failure of your goal. Everyone is different though so you basically need to find a path that works for you. For me I am keeping on my journey... making small changes to get to my goals that I have had the last two years. I keep finding ways to help me get to my goal. One way wasn't working so I changed directions in hopes that the new way will work. It's all about finding balance and learning to listen to your body. That's been a huge thing for me this past year. Also realizing how stress negatively effects my body. I am amazed at how bad my body reacts to it and how I keep trying to make changes and it rebels. Changes won't work if I am extremely stressed. I finally understand that... slowly and surely I finally get it. lol

I am excited for the new year and what may lie ahead for me and my family. I feel like I am at the brink of something new and amazing. I am starting a new Job and am extremely excited for what doors it may open for me and what new things I will get to learn. Also looking forward to my racing goals, getting stronger and faster. Trying new races, repeating old ones and having fun with friends along the way. For once I am starting the year knowing I can go do a race with or without someone joining. I want to crush my previous Spartan Race times and I want to conquer more obstacles on my own. I want to lift heavier and finally start to kick my sugar addiction to the curb. I have lots of wants that are goals and I have put together the pieces to start to accomplish it. I also plan on including restorative or therapeutic yoga into my routine to increase flexibility and learning to relax more. So this isn't a "new me/resolution" it's just a revamp of my goals that I have been doing the last few years. New game plan. I think the new job will help me as well in this process.

So my first big goal was to accomplish on January 9th. I sat on my road bike and trainer for 5 hrs for a Ultra Spin raising money for MitoCanada. I am loving my bike again after taking a year off from doing triathlons and figure with a friend we will go for it! Which we did and we stayed the whole time. Pretty proud of ourselves for doing that. Makes other training on the bike seem easy. On April 30th with my son Ty and friends will run 15 km in prep of our Half Marathon Training. Mothers Day weekend I am heading back to Montana to tackle the Beast and Sprint again... can't wait to do way faster times there. Then we complete our Half Marathon on May 29th at the Calgary Scotiabank Marathon. So thinks it's covering around 65.56 km between April 30th and May 29th. Crazy but can't wait. I feel more ready to handle it all and I learnt so much from doing it last year that I know what to do differently. Plus I am finding my recovery is getting better and if I can keep my stress down and keep on these new stress relieving techniques I can see my racing getting better. I am looking forward to seeing how things will all work together. 2014 was just a start, 2015 was practice and 2016 is game time and kicking ass!

In looking back from my years races I like to do up stats on distance covered like I did last year. I did less races... only 15 but I covered a total of 218.58 kms or 135.81 miles. Last year was 17 races and 275.46 kms or 171.16 miles distance covered in those races. Of course all these stats don't include the distance I covered in my training around the races. I almost caught up to that distance in less races. It's pretty cool to see me doing this after everything I have been thru and so glad I am able to keep at it. Asthma you may like to test me along the way but asthma doesn't define who I am anymore. Asthma can't stop me from accomplishing my goals and dreams. Nothing will as I always overcome them no matter what. I am so strong and independent and love this life I am living and making for me and my son!! I truly am Unbroken and Strong!! Watch out world this Strong Momma is just getting warmed up!! AROO!!!!

This new year has me doing so many new things already. Did a 12km snowshoe in Banff AB with my son and friend Kathleen. Was a fun day and a great adventure. Lots of stories and we goofed off to out there.

Well think that is all and I am finally getting the first blog post of the year done. Once I get my routine down better with this new drive things will hopefully settle a bit down. Plus needing to add morning workouts in as I feel icky for not doing it a week. Time to jump back on... Half marathon training won't happen on its own. Lol

Wish me luck!!

Until next time...