As time goes by I am always looking back to see how far I have come and how my life keeps changing. I am always grateful for the experiences that happen to me whether they are good or bad. I also know the bad never lasts and the good eventually comes back. Since March my life keeps getting better and better. New people and my past finally closed. New goals accomplished and more things learnt about myself and how I do/handle things. In a recent conversation with a new person in my life I am reminded that timing is never perfect like life. Some things take time and I am learning to become more patient to those that deserve it and in my everyday life as well. I find I handle things more calmly, identify certain things better and working on re-training my brain to stop looking for issues or thinking everyone is going to hurt me. I am doing much better at the self sabotage and letting things happen naturally in life. Like everything nothing happens fast and sure things are going to happen that are out of my control. I can just control how I handle them.
I have completed 5 races in just over a month. I have some crazy stats posted below about the distance I have covered during that time not including the training distances.
May 29th I ran my 4th Half Marathon... the first in over a year. My previous three half marathons were done a lot faster. My personal best was 2:24:56. I was feeling a little sorry for myself with my time this year of 3:02:20. A friend that has known me so long... before I was married and knew the old me told me that those previous times were done on lungs that were stronger. My asthma setback in March made them weak again and I did great for having weak lungs. He said I was doing amazing for doing the last four races that weren't easy ones either. I stopped feeling sorry for myself and realized he was right. I was being pathetic and that I should have been proud to finish as fast as I did with the weaker lungs I have now. During the race I felt not bad the first half and had my best start to it. Had issues the second half with lungs and my body. Hip started acting out and my lungs had their moments too and didn't want me to forget about them. It was getting hotter the second half and I do crappy when I start over heat.
I am extremely proud of my Son Ty and his friend Braiden for running their first Half Marathon and doing it in a time of 2:41:20. The only 12yr olds there running it. Super proud Mom moment that I wished I could have been there to see him finish. Was shocked to see him waiting for me just passed the medals. Made me break down and cry. OK truth is I cried a lot Sunday.... during the race and after.
I am seeing my lung specialist that was given to me after my severe asthma attack back in March. I forgot how hard the breathing tests were to do but am happy they didn't spark any asthma attacks. I don't like four shots of ventoline as it makes my heart race and gives me the jitters. I get to try new drugs since the ones I have been on for soooo many years. Nervous to try them but it might be what I need to breathe better.
I am getting back on track with training now that I have had a week off and saw my physiotherapist. Typical leg tightness causing some issues but I wasn't as bad as she thought I might be. Hopefully soon things settle down. Going to run more at lunches and head to the stairs and run those. Also working in my workouts too at home around my work and soccer schedule. Slowly getting there. Need to gear up for my big race at the end of the month.
Until next time...
I am a single mom with one son that has been living with asthma since I was 2yrs old. I also almost died three times due to severe asthma attacks! I don't let my asthma stop me from accomplishing new goals and living life to the fullest.
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